CHAPTER 4




I woke up in a white colored room, wondering where mama and faisal were. i looked at my arm and notices that it was broke. i had stitches on my right shoulder and a broken foot. I started crying until the nurse came in.




Me: Where am i ? and where is my mother and brother?




Nurse: can you give me your father's number so we can contact him


Me: WHERE IS MY MOTHER???


Nurse: please don't yell and give me the number so i can call the doctor.


I gave her my father's number and waited for the doctor to come, I've never been this scared in my life.




Doctor: Goodmorning, it seems that you were in a horrible car accident, you had internal bleeding in your liver, thank god we stopped it by the right time, how ever you need to stay at the hospital for the next 5 days.




Me: Okay but please can you tell me where are my mother and brother and what happened to them? *cries more* 


Doctor: I'm sorry to tell you that your mother died at the car scene immediately, we tried our best to save your brother, but it seems that he was a heavy smoker so his heart stopped. I'm sorry for your loss.


Me: WHAT?? YOUR JOKING RIGHT? 


Doctor: I'm sorry for your loss, we will be calling your father now.


The doctor left my room, it seems as he walks closer to the door the rooms gets wider. I felt my heart break and shatter into pieces, its a pain that i've never felt before. I feel so alone in this world. My mother died, my best friend, my sister, my role model, my everything. I just want to spend 10 minutes with her and faisal. Just to say goodbye, but I guess that's impossible. I stopped crying.  I was in total shock. I felt my world collapse all at once. Why me? I guess all I can say is el7mdellah. I miss them already. 






I needed my my brother, who will listen to me, help me, I miss him so much. I didn't know what to do. I saw my father entering my room, his face was pale and his eye's were red.




Me: ba-ba 


Babaa: hallah 7abeebty


 He came and gave my the biggest hug in the world.


Me: baba asfa, wallah asfa


Baba: laysh tet2asfayn 7abeebty


Me: asfa ena umy w faisal mataw  (i started to cry a lot and i hugged my father even more)


Baba: ma abeech etgouleen hal jumla marah thanyaaa, allah khathahum, w qadar allah wama shaaa, tlageenhum al7eeen eb mukan wayed a7san men hal dnyaa, ana abeech bas tad3eenlehoum.


Me: enshalah, baba bas aby ag3ad 10 mns wya faisal w mama, maby shay thany bel dnyaa, bas aby ag3ad wyak w wyahoum 7ag 10 mns nsoulf w neth7ak methel awal


I cried even more


Baba: ana ba3ad bas shnsawy hathyy el dnyaa. el7mdellah ena entay bugayteely


Me: El7mdellah.




You know the feeling where you just want to sleep and forget about everything..yeah i had that feeling. Lulu came everyday to the hospital and stayed by my side.


The five days past and i went back home, i couldn't stay at the funeral because i was in the hospital.


Lulu came and slept over, she did not go out on her winter break and she cancelled her trip to dubai for me. She's a true sister. A month has passed and it is now time for us to move to our new house. I couldn't sleep the first night because i didn't feel at home, and my mother and faisal aren't here.


I tried to distract myself, but with no such luck, my thoughts kept drifting back to my mother and faisal. Finally I slept for 2 hours, and dreamt of my mother talking to me.


*in the dream*


Me: mamaa? hathy entay?


She was my mother but 20 years younger. She was wearing a white dress.


Mama: eh 7abeebty, anaa yeeet agooulch ena ana w faisal mestanseeen wayed ehny w e7na nabeech trta7ayn w tnamen belayl w teg3den akthar wyaa ubuch.


Me: mama shloun arta7 w aanam w entay mu ehny? walhaaaana 3alaych wayed mama


Mama: ba3ad hathy el dnya 7abeebty, yallah ana al7een barou7.


And just like that she left. i woke up with a huge smile on my face and ran to tell baba about my dream, i got lost at first because it was the first day i slept in my new house and its really huge with many many empty rooms.


BBM:


Hessa:
7amoud waynk 


Mohammad Al X:
bel bayt, feeech shay?


Hessa:
 tekfaa ta3al baytnaaa aby a7ad yeg3ad wyaay, i feel so lonely.


Mohammad Al X:
yallah kany omw


Hessa:
mashkourrrrr:*


Mohammad Al X:
El3afouu:* cham 7e9oo 3endy?


Hessa:
haha wa7daaaa;p


I locked my phone and went to take a shower since i looked horrible, my eyes were black and my lips was dry.


I changed into my pink A&f shorts with a white shirt. Mohammad came in, when i saw him i ran and gave him a huge hug and started crying.


Mohammad:
Shfeeech 7a9oooon ga3da tabcheen?


Me: wlaaht 3alayk w enta wayed et'thakerny eb faisal w anaa men umy w ukhuy tewafaw ga3da a7s ena ma bugaly a7ad bednya


Mohammad: laa ana mawjoud w mara7 wala mukan, mta ma baghaytay shayy degay 3alay wana akoun 3endnch eb thuwany, w ana adre ma agdar akheth mukan faisal allah yer7ma, bas wallah ya 7e9a ena ana a3tbrch ekhty w 7alch 7al saraa. (sara is his 8 year old sister)


Me: mashkouur, i hugged him even tighter.


we stayed the whole day watching movies and eating junk food.




A month passed, school has been really tiring with all the stares from some of the girls, but i didn't care cause lulu and fay were by my side. 


It was 2;30 , time to go home. 


I got into the car with jerry and rosy.


Rosy: hessa as soon as u go home go to baba room he wants to talk to you, very important.


Me: whyy?


Rosy: i dont know he just told me to tell you that he needs to talk to you.


Me : okayy


I reached home and went straight to my father's room.


Me: salam baba


Baba: hala 7abeebty shloun el dawam?


Me: maku shay yedeed


Baba: 7e9a ge3day 3endy shay muhem lasm agoulch eya


Me: enshalah, shfeek baba?


Baba: tara ana qarart eny atzawaj


 Me: SHNUUUUUU?


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