CHAPTER 47 (old story)

I MISSSSSED YOU ALLL!!!!!!!! I AM BACK! inshalah i'll be posting more really soon! enjoy this post x

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I was laying in my bed, with absolutely nothing to do. My parents and mehsin traveled again for god knows what, my sisters would check up on me everyday. Lulu slept over yesterday but she left to her grandma's, but she's coming back after she's done.  I got super bored so i went and started to walk around the house, as i approached to the living room i saw the drivers car key, i got surprised lana wala mara el mefta7 eykon dakhel el bayt, kela eykon wya james. 

I took the keys and went downstairs w shaghalt elsayara, at first it was driving smoothly, until i reached the traffic light and the car wouldn't stop, i pushed my leg hard on the brakes but it had no use. I unfortunately didn't know that the car wasn't working, i instantly knew why the keys were in the house. I ended up crashing into the car in front of me, letting my head hit the steering wheel really hard. Last thing i knew, everything went black.

"dictooor tekfa 6ameny, feeha shay?"

"inshalah ngolek kel el tafa9eel awal matgoom"

i was hearing different voices, but i couldn't see anything, everything was plain black, i tried to open my eyes, but it hurt so much

without knowing, i slept for a couple of hours

I woke up to find Zaid sleeping by the coach which was in front of my bed. I looked around at the room, it was fully white. White walls, white coaches, white blinds, and white sheets. I knew i was in the hospital. 

I realized what happened, suddenly tears were streaming down my cheeks

The sound of me crying woke zaid up. 

He jumped from the coach and came next to me

Zaid: ushhh 7abeebty latabcheen

With that i cried even more, he's making it even more hard

I cried because i was scared, i cried because my body was killing me, i cried because i needed my parents, but i cried even more when he said 7abeebty

the fact that he loves another person is killllllllling me

Me: magdaar, kelmokan ey3awerny, 7ail khaifa wala mag-daa-r

Zaid: smela 3alaaych 7a9oona ta3awethay men elshay6an kaach mafech ela el3afia, bas al7een beye eykaalmch el 6abeeb lana lasm eygolch shay

Me: shnu

Zaid: al7en ohwa eyfahmch

Zaid called the doctor and sat beside me, he held my hand really tight, assuring me that he's here for me

The doctor was talking non stop, he was telling me about this surgery that i had to take 

Once he mentioned the word surgery i felt as if my heart just sank in my tummy

I started to cry, this time i cried even more

Dr: 3an ithenkom

Me: la tukfa zaid maby asawy 3amalya allah eykhaleek

Zaid: 7abeebty lasm, bas latkhafen ana bakon wyach 6ol el wakt

Me: wala akhaf allah eykhaleek latkhaleny asaweha w oboy mo wyay, walah galby byogaf tekfa zaid

Zaid: smela 3ala galbch, ya bnt el 7alal geltlch ana ehny entay mo bro7ch, wala el 3athem ana ehny

I bursted out in tears, i was too scared

All of a sudden i felt someone hugging me and saying

: mayhoon 3alay ashoofch tabchen w askt, geltlch ana wyach, law shnu ey9eer mara7 ey2atheeech shay, waala a7ad bysawwelch shay 6ool ma ana 3aiesh, ana kent ghaby gabel cham sbo3 lana 3abaly kentay makh6ooba, w ma yeet w sa2altch etha elkalam 9a7, bas ana asf 7e9a, al7een ana mara7 akhaleech bro7ch, ana ehny, w ma7ad bykhaleny aro7, a7ebch

i didn't reply, i just hugged, him. Yet that was not an excuse for me to hug a man, but i really needed it.

The nurse interrupted us and took me to the operating room, just before i entered i felt that i had to tell zaid something, incase i couldn't live anymore, i had to tell him whats in my heart

I yelled: zaaid!

Zaid: halaa

Me: ana ba3ad a7ebk

You should've seen the look on his face, it was priceless

Zaid was the perfect kuwaity guy any girl could ask for, well what i would ask for:p

He was tanned, had a fit body, dimples, and short dark brown hair, he cares, doesn't play around like other kuwaiti boys (no offense)

The nurse inserted a needle in my hand, i was feeling really numb, a few minutes later, everything went black again.

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"waaaay gooomay 7e9oooo"

"7EEEE9AAAAAA"

"ya bent el 7alal khaleeha tawha msawya 3amalya"said another voice

"umbaaay int mo men9jk, ams emsawyat'ha, haman el dr gal el mafroth etgooom"

"khaleeha tertaaaaaa7"

"malekkk sheghel abeeha tgoom, aby aray7 galby"

I slowly started to move my fingers

Lulu gasped: umbaay zaid shooof kahy gamat!! Naaad el dr aw ay a7ad!!!!!

Zaid jumped from his seat and went to call the doctor, mean while lulu was jumping up and down from happiness.

I managed to open my eyes in a couple of seconds, at first i started to see people blurry, then my sight came back to normal.

I tried to speak, but words could not come out, it was just too hard.

Lulu: haa?

Me: maa

Lulu: haa?!

Me: maaaa

Lulu: HAA?!!

Me: maaaay maay aby maaay

Lulu: ohhh!! 

She quickly got me some water, my throat was dry as the desert. 

The doctor came in and gave me a long boring speech, the main point was that i was allowed to leave the hospital tomorrow, woho \o/ 

He left so it was just me lulu and zaid

Kel ma at'thakar eny geltla eny ana ba3ad a7ba wayhy ey9eeer a7mar, 7ade metfashla magdar a7a6 3ainy eb 3aina

Lulu was talking ALL the time, magderat etwagf

Me: inzain w khawaty laish ma zarony? w geltaw 7ag oboy?

Zaid: gelnalehom ench bel shalaih, w laaa mayadre 3amy, byrd men el sefar 3gb bacher inshalah fa makan la da3y enkhar3a

My face turned all shades of pink when he spoke

Lulu looked at me w kaan feha tha7ka

Lulu: uhh ana baro7 starbucks w barid, zaid khalek ehny wya 7e9a 3ashan matkoon broo7ha

La la la !!!!!!!! latroo7en!!

Zaid: enshalah

Lulu winked at me then left the room

I HATE HERRRRRR TFASHEL

I was trying my best to not look at him, so i pretended to watch tv

but that still didn't stop him to talk to me

Zaid: e7mm, 7e9a?

Me: hala?

Zaid: gabel maydakhlonch gherfat el 3amlyaat shnu gelteely?

Me: madre kent daykha fa akeed kharba6t bel 7achy

OH NO!! 

Zaid: la laa makentay daykha

Me: ohh

Zaid: shda3wa laish matgoleeenha al7en ba3ad?

Me: shagool?

Zaid: tadren shetgolen

Me: la ma adre

Zaid: ench et7beeny

I didn't reply, i just stared into my lap

Zaid: 7a9ooon?

Waaay amoot kel maygoly 7a9ooon

I still didn't reply

Gam men mokana w ga3ad 3ala 6araf el sereeer, he placed his hand under my chin and raised my head so i could look at him

Zaid: wala el 3atheem a7bch, w adre ench et7beny, laish tankreen hal shay?

Me: lana maby asawy shay men wara thahar ahaly

Zaid: men galch ena ana aby asawy shay men wara thahar ahalch? 7asbaalch ana men hal ma9bna ely yel3boon bel bent?

Me: la laa shako

Zaid: anaa nawy adeg 3ala oboch 3gb mayrd men el sefar eb cham yoom, enshalah batqadamlch

faj2aaa ebtesamt 7ayl w gelt: 9ejj!!!!?

Zaid: la wtgoleen ench mat7beeny haaa

Me: ushhh bas

&my face turned pink again

Zaid: obooooooy ely yest7oon

Me: zaaaaid

Zaid: 3yonnaa

Me: baass:p

Zaid: laaaa

Me: may9eer wala law lulu tdesh

Zaid: 3ade w etha

Me: may9eer

Zaid: ambala ey9eeer

Me: zaid

Zaid: galba w rooo7a w kel ma feeh

Me: khalas pleaseeee!

Zaid: ufff khalas okay

I smiled and rested my head on the pillow

El7mdelaaa<3 

The day passed and it was time for me to go back home.

El7mdela makaaan feny shay, gedart amshy, but i had to take my medications daily 

I went home and just slept!! hoping that everything would go well with my father and zaid.

CHAPTER 46 (old story)

Days have passed and i still didn't receive a reply or any message from Zaid, i decided that i wont send him anything anymore, kelsh mala da3y adz 3gb ma 7egarny

I was sitting having my regular after noon tea with my lovely parents

:YOUUUBA!!

Baba jumped from his seat, trying to figure out the voice was coming from where

Moments later me7sn entered the room looking furious 

Mama: haw haw haw shfeek me7sn khebaa9t galbna, shfeek t9arkh

Me7sn: youma meta kntaw naweeen etgolonly ina 7e9a makh6ooba??!!!

I choked on the tea that i was drinking from 

Baba: mnu galk enha makh6oba?

Me7sn: youba el kel yadry!

Mama: ghala6 hal 7achy, ekhtk mo makh6ooba

Me7sn: 3ayal laish el kel eygol ena khaled al x kha6ebha?

Me: waaaaaaaai3 waai3 akher 3omry aketh hatha? Me7sn tara wala ana mo makh6ooba wala shay, w enta shlon em9adg? matadre ena 7atan law kent makh6oba ent knt btkon mn awal el nas ely yadron?

Me7sn: eh 9a7, bas ishlon intshar ilkhabar?

I turned around to face baba

Me: baba laykoon lail7en ma radayt 3la 3amy hamad

Baba: intay laish mu9era ena matabena?

Me: umbay ma9adg jad

I stood to go to my room but said: baba laish mo gader testaw3b ena ana ma aby?

Baba: bas lasm etfakren feny ana ba3ad, shagol 7ag ilrayal? ana ga3d agoolch, w mo ga3d akheth rayech, byoona ba3ad cham yom 3ashan etshofon ba3ath, w hatha akher kalam 3endy

Maryam wanted to say something, bas feeh shay kan yemna3ha, 7asat ena she didn't have the right to speak

Me crying: atmana law omy kanat hny, walah law shno kanat ra7 tertha bely enta ga3d etsawy feeny, may9er etgha9bny 3ala shay ana ma abyyy, enta al7een ma taby tetfashal men refeejk, baas akher shay ana ely bakelha, ba3eesh wya wa7d ana maa abyy, 7aram 3laik baba wala 7aram, akher wa7d tewaqa3ta eysawy chethy feeny ohw ent

I ran off to my room

I stuffed my face in the pillow and cried my heart out, its not his decision, he cant do this to me

10 minutes later maryam entered my room

She hugged me and said: shhhh baas 7abeebty latabchen mo zaain 

Me: shloon ma abchy w oboy chethy esawy feeny, may9eer yagh9bny wala may9eer

Maryam: khalas ensay 3an hal mawtho3, ana te9araft

Me: shlon

Maryam: geltla maly ga3da eb hal bait etha entay khathaytay khaled

I looked at her in complete shock

Me: mn9ejch

Maryam: eh laish mn9adma?

Me: madre bas ya3ny laish kentay btsawen kel hatha 7agy, ya3ny adre ena te3tabrainy bntch w chthy, bas bel 9ej ana mo bntch, ya3ny kntay ra7 tkharben baynch w bain oboy 3ashany ana

Maryam: lana ana 3yaly khsaraw obohom, w adre shnu ey7son feh, w magdar atkhayal entay shkether m7taja omch, kh9oo9an ina ma3ndch khawat, fa mara7 akoon murt obo na7eesa w a2athech, bel 3aks, ana ba3amlch methel banaty bel thab6, w ra7 a7awl ina a7asesch ena ana omch, w ena elshay ely oboch tawa sawa 7ayl ghlaa6 w ana ma artha feh, fa khalas ensay salfat khaled lana mara7 eyeee

I hugged her and cried even more, i finally after 3 years of torture and hurt, felt a little live piece of my mama, i felt like the hole in my heart was somewhat filled, i felt that i really do have someone in my life, god gave a step brother who couldn't treat me any better, i actually start to tell me people that he is just my brother, i'd be more than proud to call this woman my half mother, she's the most amazing thing that happened to me and my father after mama left.

Maryam stayed a while with me then left, i felt a bit relieved 

By 7 o'clock lulu picked me up and we went to have dinner

Lulu: haaa 7e9oo wain zaaid

I swallowed my burger then said: w ana shako feh

Pathetic me, i'd pretend that i dont care, that i dont want to know why he's acting this way, when deep down inside of me, is a burning fire, wanting to know absolutely everything. 

I'd check his tweets on a daily base, before i sleep and as i wake up, sometimes i'd read them during the day, i thank god he isn't private on twitter

Lulu: ohhhh

Me: emm lulu?

Lulu: haa

Me: a7ba

Lulu almost chocked as i said it

Lulu: haw haw haw intay shetkharb6een

Me: tawny astaw3b iny a7ba, wala a7ba lulu, a7s ena ana mo ana al7eeen, 9arly taqreeban sbo3ain mo mkalmta, faj2a ge6a3 mn ghair ay sbab, walah madre laish galby ey3awrny 7ayl

Lulu: w ana laish tawny adre

Me: lana tawny astaw3b hal shay

Lulu: okay kalmy w goleela shfeek w madre shnu

Me: la mala da3y, shbygol 3any ba3dain 

Lulu: ya3ny shbygol

Me: bygol hathy malat w galat khal asolf wya zaid w awans ro7y, chethy byfaker wala

Lulu: umbay shako

Me: walaa 

A week has passed, i just went out of my class and i haven't seen zaid since that day, i miss him a lot, more than you can ever imagine, even though i haven't spent that much time with him, but i still miss him, he has become an important person in my life

I was walking to the car when a girl i don't know approached to me

Girl: elsalam

Me: wa3alaikom elsalam

Girl: ymkn entay mat3arfeny, ana cousin khaled kha6eebch, bas yeeet w 7abayt abarklch

Me: shnu, ay kha6eeb entay shga3da tgoleen

Girl: weeh entay mo hessa al x?

Me: ambala ana ehya, bas ana mo makh6oba

Girl: haw ambala

Me: la2, ahal khaled dagaw 3ala ahaly bas e7na refathna, ana wya mo makh6oobeen w raja2an tgolen 7ag kel ely t3arfeenhom ena hal kalam mo 9ej

Girl: umm okayy...

I left her and hoped in the car, that jerk. Shlon yetjara2 wy6al3 rumor 3any w 3ana? mayst7y 3ala wayha!!

I took out my phone and tweeted: people im not engaged, stop it with these rumors. 

ZAIDS PERSPECTIVE

Tawni 6ale3 men el dawam wla raqam ghareeb dag 3alay

Me: aloo

: ushh zayon maly shghel feech batkalam

Me: alooo?

: uhhh zaid?

9ot'ha mo ghareeb

Me: eh mnnu ma3ay?

: ahh mala da3y et3arf, bas laish chethy tsawy eb 7e9a

Me: ana?

: eh enta, ya3ny may9er wala, tsolf wyaha w madre shnu 7ag fatra w akher shay tatrek'ha mn ghair sebab

Me: ana many mjawb 3ala ay shay ela etha gelteely mnu entay

: uffffff ana lulu

Me: lulu refeejat 7e9a?

Lulu: ehh, wala yawaylk engeltlaha eny daga 3alayk, ehya matadre 3an ayshay, bas ena nafseyat'ha ta3bana w malha khulg shay, kela 7asbalaha ena ehya msawya shay ghala6 eb 7agk, mo 7aram 3alaik?

Me: 7aram 3alayha ehya, ehya el makh6ooba mo ana, ana wa7d mayt feeha whya matadre 3an hawa dary

Mawa3ait wla t9arekh: ABAAAAAAAAAAAAY CUUUUUUUUUUUTEE

Me: w thowal ba6aytay ethoony, shnu cute?

Lulu: waay wayyy ma9adg, 7e9a mo makh6oba, cuuuute enta wakhart 3anha lana 7asabt enha makh6ooba?

Me: la7tha la7tha shnu mo makh6oba? Ambala makh6ooba ana sema3t'ha tgoolch bl 7adeeqa, w haman khaled dash el duwaniya w gal 7ag el kel

Lulu faj2a gamat etda3y w madre shtkharb6 3an le9bay

Lulu: 9ej mayst7y 3ala wayha!! Mo 9ej iff khalny sakta bas

Me: kel hatha w khalny sakta?:p

Lulu: jad 7ada ey777r!! ohwa ely 6ala3 el esha3a

Me: la7tha ya3ny akeed mo 9ej

Lulu: eh akeed, 7atan chayk akher tweet men tweets 7e9a

Me: okay al7en achayk, mashkora wayed ekhty lulwa, w please latgolen 7ag 7e9a ena geltch kel hal ashya

Lulu: bagolaha etha geltly lulwa mara thanya! esmy lulu... mo lulwa!!!

Me: asf asf lulu

Lulu: haha yallah bye

Me: bye

I checked 7e9a's tweets wla 6ala3 9ej mo makh6oba

Ga3adt afakr shloon ard asolf wyaha 3gb ma g6a3t 7ag thalath asabee3, ana 6ala3t 9ej ghaby, kan el mafroth at2akad bel awal, bas laish laamn geltlaha mabrook galatly allah eybark feek? Shnu 3abaalaha kan qasdy? 

Atmana bas law trd 3elaqatna nafs awal, al7een akeed el bent 7qdat 3alay w krahatny

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Here's the post, now you all probably haven't read my tweet, im gonna deactivate my account for a while, i really do need to focus on my school work, my grades are far from good, i think that leaving the blog for a while would be the best answer, but dont worry, i'm coming back again, probably 2 or 2 weeks after i deactivate. Also, a lot of you have been asking me why i haven't been posting daily as before, well i think its because i have school, almost a quiz everyday, 2 tests per week, and don't forget the homework, so yes i have a lot of stuff to work on, and it does effect my GPA. So please understand, thankyou. 

CHAPTER 45 (old story)

Okaay so i decided that i want to start writing from both Zaid and Hessa's perspective, so you'd know how both of them feel.

Baba: 7e9a, intay al7een kebartay, 9ertay mara, w khalas intay mo yahel, al7een entay bwayh zawaj, w ely bagolch eya wayed mohem w ra7 eyqarer mostaqblch w abech tfakeren feh 3adel

Me: haw baba shqasdk?

Baba: elyom dag 3alay 3amch Hamad, oboo khaled, ely eykon refeej m7sn 3arafteeh?

Me: eh shfeeh

Baba: daag elyom 3alay ys2al 3anch, yabee yakh6bch 7ag welda, w e7na sa2alna 3an le9bay, wala khoush wa7d

Khoush wa7d ha?:)

Me: enta mn9jk baba?

Baba: eh laish?

Me: laa baba, goleehom ma naby

Baba: 7e9a fakray bel mawtho3 3adel

Me: maby afaker, ta3athar mnhom, w lo sma7t baba latyeeebly 6ary hal mawthoo3 mara thanya

I quickly ended the conversation with my father and tried to forget what he said, wala ag3ad mo mtzawja 6ol 3omry wala atzawaj khaled

i went back to the girls wla farou7a already came, salamt 3alayha w re7na ta7at

they all jumped in the pool while i went and turned up the speakers

my mind was crammed up with lots of thoughts, i wasn't focused on the conversation that was going on

Lulu: 7e9aaa

Lulu: 7e9aaaaaaaaa

i finally realized she was talking to me

Me: haaaa?

Lulu: haw shfeech matsm3eeny? 9arly sena anadeech

Me: asfa wala bas baly mo wyay

Zayoun: ohhh ohhhh etfakreeen bel 7ub

Me: tekfain ay 7ub?;p

Zayoun: hahaa astahbel

Lulu: inzaain yala khal nbadl w netmasha bel sayara, w nakhethlna dinner mn ay moka

Me: okay ilsa3a cham al7een?

Lulu: 7:39

Me: yala 3ayal bsr3a gomaw

Each one of them entered a room and took a shower then got dressed, as usual i was the first one to finish, i didn't want to wear something that didnt felt comfy, so i wore a pink juicy training suit.

I went downstairs to find lulu sitting in the garden

Lulu: haa khala9tay

Me: laaa lail7een ga3da atsaba7

Lulu: wai3 wai3 yal baykhaaaa

Me: hehe madre 3anch!!

Lulu: inzain gomay khal netmasha 7awalaayn baytkom, aby a7ark reely shway w bas2lch shay

Me: yala okay

We started walking then lulu said: 7e9a laish elyoom entay mo 3ala ba3thch? fe shay mthaygch?

Law tadreeen bas, mo shay, elaa ashyaa!!

Me: la walah shay

Lulu: 79aaaay9, ana a3rfch mn kntay hal 6ool, betfahmeeny ena ma fech shay?

Me: waaay lulu takhaylay elyom oboy dag 3alay, eygoly ena khaled yaby yakh6by, 

I was interrupted by a sound that moved

Me: sema3tay?

Lulu: ehh, yommmaa 79oo emshay khandsh akhaf ga6wa!!

I ran inside the house, im TERRIFIED by cats!!! i have some kind of phobia from them!

Me continuing what i was saying: takhaylay 3gb kel ely sawa feeny laa 3ayn eyee wyakh6eb, laa wl moshkela el akbar ena oboy eygoly ana sa2l 3an el9bay w ena ohwa khoush wa7d, ma dara ena hadny 3ala shay ma yeswa, 3ala wa7da qaleelat adab wt7er w kaan yadry ena ana ma asawy hal ashyaa

Lulu: ayshaaay!!!

Me: walah jad!!



ZAIDS PERSPECTIVE

I was coming back cause i forgot my phone, when i saw lulu and hessa standing outside, when i heard something that broke my heart

Enkha6bat? Shlon? W meta? Laish ga3adt saket 6ool hal moda, laish sekat 7ag 4 sneen. 
4 sneen wana bas ashoofha mn b3eed w agra her tweets 3ashan a3arf wain ray7a, w laman 3araft'ha geltlaha belthab6 shlon a7s bas geltlaha ina 3an wa7da thanya esmha sara, ana 7maar iny chathabt, el bent khalas ra7at men eeedy

Dakhalt el bait, wla ashoof 7e9a wagfa b3eed, shafatny bas ma ebtesamt, bas a3tqd lasm awakher shwy 3anha, 3ashan ma a3awr galby akthaar, elbent al7een atwaqa3 enkha6bat, w lasm a7trm nafsy w a7trmha ehya ba3ad

Akhatht mobily w re7t el duwaniya

Ga3adt bel zawya broo7y w afaker

Faj2a wla eydsh wa7d awal mara ashoofa, shakla refeej 7mayn(refejy)

(btw ely dash ohwa khaled)

Khaled: barkoooly shabab!!!

Them: mabrrokkk bas 3ala shnu?

Khaled: akheeeeran khe6abt!!!

Kelman gaam w gala mabrook w madre shnu 

7mayen: mabrook khaled! allah eywafgk enshalah! 3ad mageltlna men khe6abt?

Khaled: 7abeeb allah eybark feek, ameen enshalah, Hessa Al X

Galby 6a7 eb ba6ny awal ma sema3t esmha

Ma3qoola 7e9a? Ya3ny already wafa8tay? w mata3abtay roo7ch ena tgolenly?

6ala3t men el duwaniya eb asra3 wakt

Rekabt sayarty w dest 7ayl, faj2a wla a7s shay 3ala wayhy, nazalt el manthara wla ashof dmoo3 matrosa eb wayhy

La7th la7tha? ana? Ana ely mayhmny shay, ana el qawy ely mayhzny a7ad abchy?

Akhhh law bas 7e9a tadry....

shaghalt my majeeds playlist and i just cruised around, ma wa3ayt ela elsa3a 9arat 1 

chayakt mobily wla whatsapp mn 7e9a

: Zaid waink? 3endy khoush khabar!! -10:45
 Zaid? -11:33
-zaid laykoon 9ar feek shay?- 11:52
-ZAAID-12:17
-uff please zaid red gool ayshay-12:44

Garayta w 7egart'ha

Dakhalt el bait wla 7e9a ga3da 3ala el sofa tan6rny

7e9a: waay zaid laish matrd 3ala mobilk! kheft wala

Me: madre

7e9a: umm ok, bagolk shay 7ada eywans!! barekly!!

Me: mo lasm tgolenly, already adre, mabrook

7e9a: okhh already galek?

Me: eh galy, a9lan el akhbar hal ayam bsr3a yntashron

7e9a: ohh

3a6ayt'ha thahry w re7t dary

HESSA'S PERSPECTIVE

Haw shloon yadry zaid ena i took an A eb akher quiz?hmmm akeed Dr Ahmed gala! bas laish shakla mnafs w mala khelgy? ymkn ta3baan aw shay

I went upstairs to my room and slept 

I woke up the next day at about 9 

I washed, dressed and went downstairs

Me: rosy where is zaid?

Rosy: He go, he took his stuff with him

Me: what? why?

Rosy: baba will come now, jerry went to the airport

Me: 9ejj??!!

Rosy: yes!!

Me: HEYAA, yalah tara im hungry send Jaimy to mcdonalds and order for me pancakes please

Rosy: okay i'll tell him now

Me: thankyou!

I ran upstairs to get my phone

I checked whatsapp wla zaid was online, i sent him : laish re7t?

He read it then exited the app, haw shfeeh hatha? bada3 kela ya7gerny

Haman ra7 elyom w ma gal bye wala shay, ma ta3ab ro7a ams eygoly shay wana na6reta

Amoot wa3arf shsawayt ghala6 3ashan kel hatha ey9eer

My breakfast arrived, as i was eating it i saw a shadow behind me, i turned around to find me7sn standing

Me: 7ASOOOOOOOON

I ran and jumped and hugged him, latloomony walaht 3ala okhoy

Me: ya7maaar tsafron w matgolonly haaa

Me7sn: ba3ad shnsawy, kelshay 9ar bsr3a walah

Me: khalas 3ade, haa qbalook el jam3a?

Me7sn: lail7en madre, eyrdonlna khabar ba3ad shahar

Me: olaaa

Me7sn: ehhh, inzain shsawaytay we7na msafreen

Me: gazaayt gaaaz w sheft wayed awlaad 7lween

Me7sn hit me by my arm playfully

Me7sn: aaaya7maaaaraaa! hatha wana hny tgolen chethy shloon law ana mo hny! banaat hal wakt mako 7aya kelsh

Me: LOOOL me7sn like chillax

Kent ga3da astahbel, i dont speak that way:p

Me7sn: like chilax haa? taabeen afl3ch box 3ala wayhch ey3almch shnu chillax

Me: omg your like soooooooo uncool

Me7sn: waaaai3 7e9o 6ala3tay men rab3 el mcchicken

Me: LOL shfeek astahbl wyak

Me7sn: haha, inzaain tara rab3y byon baytna elyom

Me: okaay?

Me7sn: la mo okay, mabee ashoofch bel bait

Me: haaay 6a3 hatha, laish ba3ad?

Me7sn: 3ashan mayshoofonch ba3ad laish

Me: yala 3ad yala, maly shghl fekom

Me7sn: ywaylch en garabtay 9oob il duwaniya

Me: way me7sn laykon ana mayta 3ala rab3k ya3ny

Me7sn: la bas ga3d agolch

Me: okay okay

Me: wain omy w oboy?

Me7sn: ra7aw 3end mama hessa

Me: ahaa

Me7sn: yala ana ray7 anam shway, taben shay?

Me: salamtk

Me7sn turned around, as he was walking i went and hugged him from his back

Me7sn: haa faj2aa

Me: a7bkk me7sn, walah a7bk, haman ga3da a7bk kether alah yr7ma faisal

Me7sn smiled at me: 7abeeebty 7a9ooon, wala matadren shhkether anaa a7bch, alah laya7rmny mnch

I let go of him then he said: wala men luluu=))

Me: kaaaaaaalb:p

Me7sn: la la astahbel, a9lan enty tswaain lulu w 6waayf lulu ba3ad

Me: 3ayaaar

Me7sn: jaad:p

Me: yeah right, yallah bye lasm arou7 el jam3a

Me7sn: ma3a elsalaamaa

I left the house and went to the university 

I decided to sit around after i was done with all of my classes, hoping Zaid might pass by....but with no such luck, he didn't show up.

I got tired so i went back home, i spent the rest of the day sitting with my family, yara and yasmeena came over with their husbands, the day ended and i still didn't get a reply from Zaid.

CHAPTER 44 (old story)

Good evening beautiful people! 

No matter how depressed or sad you are, just smile, trust me you'll feel a bit happier. Nothing and i do mean it, NOTHING is worth your sadness or tears in life. Smile, your beautiful!! Feeling alone? Like no one is there for you? Well your wrong, never ever forget that Allah is always there for you, whenever you need help, Allah is there for you. ANNNNND always remember im here for you, so don't be shy or scared to just send me a dm, trust me a lot of people already told me some of their problems, and no, i won't go and tell people about them cause i do believe in something called karma, i would never "aftha7" someone, so if you have something to tell me, just say it, trust me i'd understand:)

Well, here's the post as i promised, and i know i promised i'd post it yesterday bas i had a huge test.

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I got out of class and called m7amad

: aloooo

Me: 7amoood waink yala you3ana

: ana mo 7amood

Me: bedaina sakhafa? m7amad waink ana you3anaa!!!

: wala ana mo m7amad, ana refeja

Me: ayshay

The person on the other end of the line was laughing

Me: uhhh goola eydeg 3alay laman tshofa

: mnu 7athretch?

Me: 7e9a

: emm okay agola

And i closed the line..FASHLA

As i was walking i saw farou7a approaching to me

Me: hala walaaaaaaa

Farou7a: hala feech!

Me: haaa shlounch ilyoum?

Farou7a: wala el7mdela bkhair, intay shlounch

Me: el7emdela

Farou7a: 7ade wedy arou7 movie w ghada, teyen?

Me: la walah magdar ba6la3 wya m7amad al7een, shraych teyen baytna elyom belail?

Farou7a: weeh, khalas you have fun! 

Me: thankyoouuu, bas btyen baity, elyoum at 6, pool then netmasha bel sayara w chethy, i'll tell lulu w zayooon

Farah: khalas okay

My phone was vibrating

Incoming call: Mohammad

Me: alooo m7amad ya7mar ent kela tfashelny!! takhayal rad 3alay refeejk w ana at7al6am wagool you3ana, iffff wai3 fashla, inzain waink tara ana you3ana

I heard a giggle

Oh no

Me: inta mu m7amad 9a7

: heheh la2

I placed my hand on my forehead, shiiiit

Me: oh

: m7amad eygolch ena ohwa bara bas nesa mobila wyay

Me: oh okay

:yala bye

Me: bye

I closed the phone and was walking outside the campus to the parking

I hopped into m7amads car 

Me: m7amaaaaaaaaaaaaad

Mohammad: haaaa

Me: fashla:(

Mohammad: hahaaaaaa galy refejy, loooool

Me: hay maytha7k jad 

Mohammad: 3ade 3ade 6af hatha wa7d 9ayda, inzain wain taben

Me: hmm kaifk

Mohammad: aby maki 

Me: wai3 la2 kelsh mo meshtehyta

Mohammad: khalas emshay shake shack

Me: laaaaaaaaa2

Mohammad: weh khala9 intay nagay

Me: rouuuu7 slider

Mohammad: hmm khalas ok

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After we ordered 

Mohammad: 7e9a 3amy msafer 

Me: eh

Mohammad: mnu wyach bel bait

Me: zaid

Mohammad: mnu zaid?!

Me: zaid al x

Mohammad: w shako yay baytkom

Me: oboy gala

Mohammad: sh'hal ma9khara 7e9a, rayal ghareeeb eyeee baytkom la w oboch msafer

Me: ana shako m7amad, oboy ely gal mo ana!

Mohammad: ya3ny el nas shbyfakron lay daraw ina entay ga3da bel bait wya rayal ghareeb, tara elsalfa feha sum3a! latensain hal shay okay!

Me: ifff m7amad lat3a9b 3alay, deg 3ala oboy w gola hal 7achy

Mohammad: inzain shlon eljam3a

Me: el7mdela wlshker 7adk bipolar

Mohammad: haw laish

Me: faj2a tkon m3a9b w faj2a t9eer 3ade

Mohammad: ohooo 3ade 3ade ana hal ayam mo 3ala ba3thy

We finished our lunch then re7na salamna 3ala yadety w radayt el bait

The house felt so empty, i entered rosy's room

Me: rosy is zaid in the house

Rosy: yeah

Me: oh okay

I went and sat in the 9ala, zaid ma kan yeg3ad bel 9ala ely foog, bas yg3ad eb el srdaab

I laid on the coach and flipped through the channels, i got bored so i was thinking of going downstairs to sit with zaid for a bit

La7tha 7e9a shga3da tgolen? entay shako bel rayal? 

E7teramt nafsy w ga3adt bel 9ala laman the girls eyooon

4:47 

This was hopeless

I am boreedddddddddddd

I called james and told him ena ey6al3 elsayara

Me: james get out

James: whyyyy

Me: yalla get out

James: daaymn u goin crazy 

Me: ohooo yalah jamyy

James got out of the car and i jumped in the drivers seat

James: what the haaayl (hell)

Me: so are you getting in the car or am i driving by myself

James: shnu hatha! ofcourse im getting in

Me: ohh james your arabic is getting better

James: yeah no i am "Wahesh" 

Me: what

James: Wahesh

Ga3adt sa3a afaker shnu qasda akher shay estaw3abt ena qasda wa7sh-.-

Me: who taught you that word?

James: mehsin and his friends

James's black accent was really strong, so he'd say fraaainds instead of just friends:p keep that in mind

I started driving around our block, then i went to the main street

Jammy: turn right

:why'd you go right i clearly said go left!!

W 6oool el 6reej wehwa mlaw3 chabdy w bas yt7al6am

I parked outside the house and wished i didn't even ride with him, eynarfzzzz

Dakhalt baytna wana at7al6aam

: 7e9oooo baasch te7l6m w rab el ka3ba chench bal3a radio

I turned around to find zaid standing behind me

Me: waai3 waai3 inta ba3ad

And i walked upstairs

I sat in the living room, and zaid followed a few minutes later

Zaid: la7tha la7tha shnu enta ba3ad

Me: elkel ya yet6anaz aw yzefoony

Zaid giggled: mnu zafch elyoom

Me: james!! eygoly lefay ymeen w laman alef eyzfny wygol geltlch lefay yesar, w bas yet6anaz! a9lan keraht 3omry maby a7ad ey3almny asoog etha chethy by9arkhon

Zaid: la youba khala9 ana a3almch

Me: la mashkoor

Zaid: laish

Me: maby ba3dain etha da3amt aw shay tet6anaz wla tzf, maly khulg

Zaid: la kelsh mo nethamy, maly shighil feech, ba3almch bacher inshalah

I smiled and said: inshalah

Out of no where lulu entered the 9ala wya zayon w they were both wearing there swimming shorts, they had a t-shirt on top of their bathing suit since kanaw bel sayara

Lulu had floaters on her arms=)) maeltlkom bas lulu doesnt know how to swim 3adel

Me and zaid turned around, ma asma3 ela wa7d ba6ha the7k

Lulu gasped: umbaaaaaaaaay la la mo 9ej!!!

She ran to my room and zayoon stood their like the zombie she usually is 

Zayoun: ummm hi

Us : hey

Zayoun: okaaaaay this is awkward

Me: uhhh zayoun hatha zaid

Zayoun gasped: ohh hatha ely gelteelna 3ana elyyy

chan tasket

ta7md rabha ina magalat ay kelma thanya wla chan hafayt'ha b akbar ma 3ndy

Zaid: elyy?;p

Zayoun kanat 7ayl metwahga w mo 3arfa shetred

Me: uhhh ely ga3d eb baitna laman oboy msaferr

Zaid: ohh, yallah ana astta2then, ma3a elsalama

Us: ma3a elsalama

Me: malat 3alaaich, ba3ad laish matgoolenla kel el ashya ely ana agolch eyaha

Zayoun: way ya3ny ana shdarany

We sat and waited for farou7a to arrive, i was sitting in the balcony and talking to my father on the phone

6ab3an bechayt w te7al6amt w 3a9abt bas ba3dain bedayt asolf 3ade

Baba: inzain shbtsawen elyom

Me: yayeen elbanat 3ndy

Baba: eh khosh lateg3den brou7ch bel bait

Me: eh inshalah

Baba: inzain 7e9a ana bagolch shay mohem, w abeech tsm3eeny 3adel w tfakreen 3adel gabel matqarereen

Me: haw shfek baba

Baba: -----------------------

My heart stopped with his next sentence

Ma3qoola elshay ely oboy ga3d eygola 9ej?! Inshalah la2. I felt like i wanted to cry.