Previously on ch 34:
Dr: Khaled Hamad Al X
Khaled: Na3am
WHAT?? Khaled is in this class? i thought i was done with him a long time ago, this seriously cannot be happening.
After a long hour &half, class was over. I grabbed my papers and rushed out the door, not wanting to look at khaled.
As i was walking a girl who was a bit taller than me, with a fit body, long wavy blonde hair stopped me.
: Hessa?
Me: Halla
The girl: ahhah intay akeed ma3arafteny, bas ana wyaach bel class ma3a Dr Ahmed
Me: ohh ehh 9a7
This is awkward
Girl: im sorry to ask, bas intay ekhet allah yr7ma faisal, 9a7?
Me: la 3ade, eh
The girl hugged me 7ail and said: umbay ma9adeg its you
Me: shelsalfa?
Girl: madre shlon agolch, bas 9a7 faisal worked in a summer camp? 2 summers before he died right?
Me: ehh..
Akhhhh its killing me to remember him
Girl: ana knt a counselor wya, w umm 7ade metfashla bas i have to tell you, we were together
Me: la7tha..your name starts with a F?
Girl: ehh..shdarach?
Me: Faisal wouldn't stop talking about you, kan ey7bch 7ail, wallah kan eysolefly 3anch 6ool elwakt, bas ma retha yegoly esmch, for 2 years knt a7awl a6al3 esmch, bas magedart
Suddenly the girl started crying and said: waaay 7abeeby ya faisal
We went to the bathroom so she would remove the mascara stains under her eye, i told her that i was going to take her to faisal, i guess she deserves to see him
Girl: its your first day right?
Me: yeah
Girl: ta3alay wyaay, i'll show you around campus w wain kelshay, w sit with me and my friends, whens your next class?
I looked at my schedule and said: 1 o'clock
Girl: 3ayal yallah ta3alay, i'm farah btw, bas kelman eynadeeny farou7a
Me: okay, thankyou farou7a
Farah: la shda3wa, ana last year was my first year, w i know how you feel
Me: walah matadren shkether im nervous, madre laish
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After my last class, Farou7a came with me to the car, when we entered i told james to go to elmagbara.
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Farah sat on her knees, took out a really old looking blackberry (Since were living 3 years later) and opened it
Farah: faisal, shloonk?Akhh matadre shkether walaht 3alayk, shkether temanayt adeg 3alayk 7ag akher mara, you left with no good byes, bas i still hear your voice, i hear it everyday before i sleep, haha a7md raby alf mara enk etdezly voice notes akthar men ma etdeg 3alay, i still have you on bbm, i still re-read your conversations, i still wear the t-shirt ely you got me from london, i'm still not over you, haa esma3 ba3ad, hatha el voice note awal ma geltly ena t7bny wallah magdar ansaaak ya aghla nasy, athker kan awal wa7ed etdezly eya
Shaghelat a voice note, it was faisal's voice, he was singing 7abeby ne3trf by rashed al majed
-Ana w galby ne3trf
7ata 3yony te3trf
Bl7ub lek wlshoog lek, lajlk 7abeeby ne3trf
Bl wakt ana mkhfy ghalak
Wlgalb haayem feh hewak
Tes7ar 3yoony mn 7alak
Ya kaif lek ma ne3trf?
La ma bega fel jesm roo7
Elrooo7 ma3k enta tro7
Terfetho 3ank matero7
W en jatny mnk ankhe6f
Yakfy wala tes2al so2al
La tatrk kel shakek eb majal
law be3dna wl 9aber 6al
El 7ub lek mayekhtlf
Eh ya Farah, ana a7bch, w a7bch 7ayl, men awal yom ma sheftch 7abaytch, w ma3araft ay 6areqa thanya ena agolch eny amoot 3alaych.
Then the voice note ended
I placed my hand on my cheek it was fully wet, i miss him so much, i miss our fights, i miss everything, i miss faisal
7asayt reely magderat etsheelny i quickly sat on the ground and hugged my knees and dug my face in them, i couldn't take it anymore, after i heard his voice, i felt like i needed him, i needed my brother, i couldn't stop the tears from falling from my eyes, i couldn't, i just couldn't.
Farah ran to me and said with eyes full of tears: umbay 7ade asfa waalah maknt adre ena by9er fech chethy, makan qasdy eny athaygch walah
Me: la2 mathayagteeny kelsh, bas aby mnch shay wa7d, please latrdeeny
Farah: amray, asawelch ay shay
Me: please dezely el voice notes, a7taj asma3 9ota, allah eykhaleech
Farah: al7een adezhom
She added me on bbm, i noticed that her status said : F♥
: F ya3ny Faisal?
Farah: eh, mashelta walah mara, haman laman ghayart my phone, i still left the status, i also sent the voice notes to my new phone, bas magdart age6 el qadeem, it had so much memories
I hugged Farah so hard, she was the one that fahad loved with all of his heart, the girl that blew him away
Farah: 7abeeebty latabcheeen, inshaalah nshoufa bel jannah
Me: inshalah
She sent me all of the voice notes, they were a total of 69. Wow faisal sure loved her.
I dropped her to her house, then went to mine's.
I checked my phone, i had one bbm from Farah.
Farah Al X:
-listen to voice note 00-98833, your gonna love it
Hessa Al X:
-enshalah, thankyou so much for letting me listen to them
Farah Al X:
-testahlain akthar
I ran to my room, not wanting to eat lunch, i opened my closet and took all of faisal's clothes that i kept for me, it still had his smell. I took his perfume and sprayed it on his shirt, i closed my door, not locking it, and sat on my bed, besmela, here it goes.
I opened the voice note that farah told me about:
-Hallah farouu7a, agoolch ana al7een eb el ma7al ely gelteely 3ana , cartier 3adel? 7ade metwaheg bacher 3eed melad 7a9oon w mo 3arf shnu ashtereelaha, she's turning 14 wya wayeha, aby ashtereelaha shay mal ekbar, bas maykon shakelha over kbeer, w ma aby ashtereelaha shay mal yahal, aby a36eha el present laman adesh eb her party, eh mageltch, ana kalamt lulu refejat'ha ely kela wyaha, bnsawy 7ag 79a a surprise party bacher, gelt 7ag lulu ena tgol ena kelaaha fekrat lulu w ena el7afla men lulu, ma7abayt ena atlaygaf wayed, bas jad 7e9a testahel, haha 3ala kether ma a6aferha w sa3at akhaleeha tabchy 3nd omy, bas magdar a3eesh bedonha, walah agdar a7a9el ekhet methelha, lasem tet3arfain 3alayha, bterta7ainlaha wayed, kel rab3y ey7bonha, bas al7en ma gemt arthalaha teg3ad wyahom lanha mara, may9eer. El mohem al7een madre shnu ashtery, ako a bracelet jedamy w ako a necklace, shnu tetwaq3ain a7la?
And the voice note ended, i suddenly remembered the necklace that he got me, i couldn't breath properly from the crying, ahh faisal if only you knew how much i miss you, if only you know how much you mean to me.
I ran to baba's room, with eyes full of tears, not able to speak or breath properly
I only saw Maryam
Me: mama waa-aain oboyyy
Maryam: smela 3alaych, 7abebety shfeech?
Me: mama wain oboooy!!!!! ma agder at7amal akthar wainaa??
Maryam: bel serdab, bas 3enda a7ad
I ignored her and ran downstairs
Maryam: 7a9oona ne6ray, 7abeebty shfeeeech
I was faster than her
with every step that i ran, my tears fell even more
I finally reached the basement and went to the 9ala, where my father was
Me with a shaky voice: baba
He still didn't see me since i was standing behind a wall
Baba: 7e9a? Shfeech
Me: baba ta3al bsre3a
Baba: ta3alay 3endy
I walked to my father, shockingly i saw the guy who helped me at the university today
Me: baba bser3a ta3al, aby akalmk tharoory
My father stood immediately as he saw the tears that were in my eyes.
The guy was shocked, actually he was terrified from my face, it was full of tears and my eyes were puffy
Baba came and took me to another living room, leaving the guy all by him self
Baba: 7e9a 7abeebty shfeech? laish ga3da tabchen ? Mnu emza3lch?
: baba
I forced that word out of my mouth, not able to speak properly, i could barely inhale the air.
Baba: latet7achain
He told the nanny to get me water
Maryam kanat ga3da tegra 3alay, ehya w oboy kanaw khayfen 7ayl, awal mara abchy chethy jedamhom
I drank water and told my father: baba please latgoly ina hadamtaw baytna el qadeem?
Baba: al7en kel hal bachy 3ashan bait qadem?
Me: baba jawebny tharoory wallah
My tears came right again as i remembered his voice
Baba: khalas khalas latabchen, laa2 ma hdemaw elbayt, al7een aby etjawbeny, laish ga3da tabcheen?
Me: baba 6ala3taw kel el aghrath wla layl7en mawjouden?
Baba: kelshay 3ala 7a6eta, maghayrna walah shay
Me: tekfa baba, allah eykhaleeek 3a6ny el mefta7 barou7
Baba: la2, mako ro7a bro7ch
Me: baba allah eykhaleek, tekfa latrdny a7taj arou7 walah
Baba: tan6ereny laman akhal9 w aye wyach
Me: baba la2, a7taj arou7 brou7y
Maryam was really scared
Baba: geltlch roo7a bro7ch mako
Me: bas baba please
I cried even more, i needed to go alone, he had to respect that.
Baba: geltch la2
Maryam: Abdulwahab shfeek? Matshof elbnt dmoo3ha tarsa 3ainha? Aked feh shay qawy, khalha tro7
Baba: Maryam shlon akhaleha etdsh bayt ma re7nala men sneen, la w brou7ha ba3ad? Law ye6la3laha a7ad shnsawy 7azat'ha
Maryam: khala9 khalha, bas hal mara, tekfa khalha, w james bykon bara na6erha
Baba had second thoughts then said: La7tha arou7 ayeb el mefta7
As baba entered the elevator i jumped and hugged maryam
Me: mashkora 7ayl 7ayl 7ayl, wallah mama matadren shekether a7bch
Maryam: el3afou, bas ana makhala9t mench, btgolenly sh9ayr awal matrden btgolenly sh9ayer belthab6, wla ma atwa9a6lch mara thanya
Me: inshalah.
What i loved about maryam was she was a caring woman, she would understand me, she even told my father that she wanted mama and faisal's pictures, she hanged them in the living room, along with her husband's (me7sns father who died) bas kbarat eb 3ayny 7ayl, lana 7a6at 9oura eb her room, el9ooora kanat ana w mama w faisal w baba eb London, she didn't say anything, and thats why i loved her the most.
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Dr: Khaled Hamad Al X
Khaled: Na3am
WHAT?? Khaled is in this class? i thought i was done with him a long time ago, this seriously cannot be happening.
After a long hour &half, class was over. I grabbed my papers and rushed out the door, not wanting to look at khaled.
As i was walking a girl who was a bit taller than me, with a fit body, long wavy blonde hair stopped me.
: Hessa?
Me: Halla
The girl: ahhah intay akeed ma3arafteny, bas ana wyaach bel class ma3a Dr Ahmed
Me: ohh ehh 9a7
This is awkward
Girl: im sorry to ask, bas intay ekhet allah yr7ma faisal, 9a7?
Me: la 3ade, eh
The girl hugged me 7ail and said: umbay ma9adeg its you
Me: shelsalfa?
Girl: madre shlon agolch, bas 9a7 faisal worked in a summer camp? 2 summers before he died right?
Me: ehh..
Akhhhh its killing me to remember him
Girl: ana knt a counselor wya, w umm 7ade metfashla bas i have to tell you, we were together
Me: la7tha..your name starts with a F?
Girl: ehh..shdarach?
Me: Faisal wouldn't stop talking about you, kan ey7bch 7ail, wallah kan eysolefly 3anch 6ool elwakt, bas ma retha yegoly esmch, for 2 years knt a7awl a6al3 esmch, bas magedart
Suddenly the girl started crying and said: waaay 7abeeby ya faisal
We went to the bathroom so she would remove the mascara stains under her eye, i told her that i was going to take her to faisal, i guess she deserves to see him
Girl: its your first day right?
Me: yeah
Girl: ta3alay wyaay, i'll show you around campus w wain kelshay, w sit with me and my friends, whens your next class?
I looked at my schedule and said: 1 o'clock
Girl: 3ayal yallah ta3alay, i'm farah btw, bas kelman eynadeeny farou7a
Me: okay, thankyou farou7a
Farah: la shda3wa, ana last year was my first year, w i know how you feel
Me: walah matadren shkether im nervous, madre laish
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After my last class, Farou7a came with me to the car, when we entered i told james to go to elmagbara.
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Farah sat on her knees, took out a really old looking blackberry (Since were living 3 years later) and opened it
Farah: faisal, shloonk?Akhh matadre shkether walaht 3alayk, shkether temanayt adeg 3alayk 7ag akher mara, you left with no good byes, bas i still hear your voice, i hear it everyday before i sleep, haha a7md raby alf mara enk etdezly voice notes akthar men ma etdeg 3alay, i still have you on bbm, i still re-read your conversations, i still wear the t-shirt ely you got me from london, i'm still not over you, haa esma3 ba3ad, hatha el voice note awal ma geltly ena t7bny wallah magdar ansaaak ya aghla nasy, athker kan awal wa7ed etdezly eya
Shaghelat a voice note, it was faisal's voice, he was singing 7abeby ne3trf by rashed al majed
-Ana w galby ne3trf
7ata 3yony te3trf
Bl7ub lek wlshoog lek, lajlk 7abeeby ne3trf
Bl wakt ana mkhfy ghalak
Wlgalb haayem feh hewak
Tes7ar 3yoony mn 7alak
Ya kaif lek ma ne3trf?
La ma bega fel jesm roo7
Elrooo7 ma3k enta tro7
Terfetho 3ank matero7
W en jatny mnk ankhe6f
Yakfy wala tes2al so2al
La tatrk kel shakek eb majal
law be3dna wl 9aber 6al
El 7ub lek mayekhtlf
Eh ya Farah, ana a7bch, w a7bch 7ayl, men awal yom ma sheftch 7abaytch, w ma3araft ay 6areqa thanya ena agolch eny amoot 3alaych.
Then the voice note ended
I placed my hand on my cheek it was fully wet, i miss him so much, i miss our fights, i miss everything, i miss faisal
7asayt reely magderat etsheelny i quickly sat on the ground and hugged my knees and dug my face in them, i couldn't take it anymore, after i heard his voice, i felt like i needed him, i needed my brother, i couldn't stop the tears from falling from my eyes, i couldn't, i just couldn't.
Farah ran to me and said with eyes full of tears: umbay 7ade asfa waalah maknt adre ena by9er fech chethy, makan qasdy eny athaygch walah
Me: la2 mathayagteeny kelsh, bas aby mnch shay wa7d, please latrdeeny
Farah: amray, asawelch ay shay
Me: please dezely el voice notes, a7taj asma3 9ota, allah eykhaleech
Farah: al7een adezhom
She added me on bbm, i noticed that her status said : F♥
: F ya3ny Faisal?
Farah: eh, mashelta walah mara, haman laman ghayart my phone, i still left the status, i also sent the voice notes to my new phone, bas magdart age6 el qadeem, it had so much memories
I hugged Farah so hard, she was the one that fahad loved with all of his heart, the girl that blew him away
Farah: 7abeeebty latabcheeen, inshaalah nshoufa bel jannah
Me: inshalah
She sent me all of the voice notes, they were a total of 69. Wow faisal sure loved her.
I dropped her to her house, then went to mine's.
I checked my phone, i had one bbm from Farah.
Farah Al X:
-listen to voice note 00-98833, your gonna love it
Hessa Al X:
-enshalah, thankyou so much for letting me listen to them
Farah Al X:
-testahlain akthar
I ran to my room, not wanting to eat lunch, i opened my closet and took all of faisal's clothes that i kept for me, it still had his smell. I took his perfume and sprayed it on his shirt, i closed my door, not locking it, and sat on my bed, besmela, here it goes.
I opened the voice note that farah told me about:
-Hallah farouu7a, agoolch ana al7een eb el ma7al ely gelteely 3ana , cartier 3adel? 7ade metwaheg bacher 3eed melad 7a9oon w mo 3arf shnu ashtereelaha, she's turning 14 wya wayeha, aby ashtereelaha shay mal ekbar, bas maykon shakelha over kbeer, w ma aby ashtereelaha shay mal yahal, aby a36eha el present laman adesh eb her party, eh mageltch, ana kalamt lulu refejat'ha ely kela wyaha, bnsawy 7ag 79a a surprise party bacher, gelt 7ag lulu ena tgol ena kelaaha fekrat lulu w ena el7afla men lulu, ma7abayt ena atlaygaf wayed, bas jad 7e9a testahel, haha 3ala kether ma a6aferha w sa3at akhaleeha tabchy 3nd omy, bas magdar a3eesh bedonha, walah agdar a7a9el ekhet methelha, lasem tet3arfain 3alayha, bterta7ainlaha wayed, kel rab3y ey7bonha, bas al7en ma gemt arthalaha teg3ad wyahom lanha mara, may9eer. El mohem al7een madre shnu ashtery, ako a bracelet jedamy w ako a necklace, shnu tetwaq3ain a7la?
And the voice note ended, i suddenly remembered the necklace that he got me, i couldn't breath properly from the crying, ahh faisal if only you knew how much i miss you, if only you know how much you mean to me.
I ran to baba's room, with eyes full of tears, not able to speak or breath properly
I only saw Maryam
Me: mama waa-aain oboyyy
Maryam: smela 3alaych, 7abebety shfeech?
Me: mama wain oboooy!!!!! ma agder at7amal akthar wainaa??
Maryam: bel serdab, bas 3enda a7ad
I ignored her and ran downstairs
Maryam: 7a9oona ne6ray, 7abeebty shfeeeech
I was faster than her
with every step that i ran, my tears fell even more
I finally reached the basement and went to the 9ala, where my father was
Me with a shaky voice: baba
He still didn't see me since i was standing behind a wall
Baba: 7e9a? Shfeech
Me: baba ta3al bsre3a
Baba: ta3alay 3endy
I walked to my father, shockingly i saw the guy who helped me at the university today
Me: baba bser3a ta3al, aby akalmk tharoory
My father stood immediately as he saw the tears that were in my eyes.
The guy was shocked, actually he was terrified from my face, it was full of tears and my eyes were puffy
Baba came and took me to another living room, leaving the guy all by him self
Baba: 7e9a 7abeebty shfeech? laish ga3da tabchen ? Mnu emza3lch?
: baba
I forced that word out of my mouth, not able to speak properly, i could barely inhale the air.
Baba: latet7achain
He told the nanny to get me water
Maryam kanat ga3da tegra 3alay, ehya w oboy kanaw khayfen 7ayl, awal mara abchy chethy jedamhom
I drank water and told my father: baba please latgoly ina hadamtaw baytna el qadeem?
Baba: al7en kel hal bachy 3ashan bait qadem?
Me: baba jawebny tharoory wallah
My tears came right again as i remembered his voice
Baba: khalas khalas latabchen, laa2 ma hdemaw elbayt, al7een aby etjawbeny, laish ga3da tabcheen?
Me: baba 6ala3taw kel el aghrath wla layl7en mawjouden?
Baba: kelshay 3ala 7a6eta, maghayrna walah shay
Me: tekfa baba, allah eykhaleeek 3a6ny el mefta7 barou7
Baba: la2, mako ro7a bro7ch
Me: baba allah eykhaleek, tekfa latrdny a7taj arou7 walah
Baba: tan6ereny laman akhal9 w aye wyach
Me: baba la2, a7taj arou7 brou7y
Maryam was really scared
Baba: geltlch roo7a bro7ch mako
Me: bas baba please
I cried even more, i needed to go alone, he had to respect that.
Baba: geltch la2
Maryam: Abdulwahab shfeek? Matshof elbnt dmoo3ha tarsa 3ainha? Aked feh shay qawy, khalha tro7
Baba: Maryam shlon akhaleha etdsh bayt ma re7nala men sneen, la w brou7ha ba3ad? Law ye6la3laha a7ad shnsawy 7azat'ha
Maryam: khala9 khalha, bas hal mara, tekfa khalha, w james bykon bara na6erha
Baba had second thoughts then said: La7tha arou7 ayeb el mefta7
As baba entered the elevator i jumped and hugged maryam
Me: mashkora 7ayl 7ayl 7ayl, wallah mama matadren shekether a7bch
Maryam: el3afou, bas ana makhala9t mench, btgolenly sh9ayr awal matrden btgolenly sh9ayer belthab6, wla ma atwa9a6lch mara thanya
Me: inshalah.
What i loved about maryam was she was a caring woman, she would understand me, she even told my father that she wanted mama and faisal's pictures, she hanged them in the living room, along with her husband's (me7sns father who died) bas kbarat eb 3ayny 7ayl, lana 7a6at 9oura eb her room, el9ooora kanat ana w mama w faisal w baba eb London, she didn't say anything, and thats why i loved her the most.
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