CHAPTER 33

Its finally THURSDAY!

My parents, misho's mother &sister , muneera&m7amad are already in the shalaih

I got in the car with ghala we first went and got zayoona then picked Layan w Nouf, then went straight to the shalaaaaaihhhhhhh!! Finally


Abdullah Al X: 
-Ray7a elshalaih ilyom?

Jawa: 
-Eh :D you?

Abdullah Al X:
-akeeeeeeeeeeed damch ehnaak barou7:*

Jawa:
-ashwaa:*

When i entered the shalaih I ran up the stairs and changed.

Salamna 3la elkel w taghadayna

I fell on the coach and said: mama wain misho?

Mama: bel7adeeeqa wya rab3a

I gasped: mama bader w 7amany w kelhom wyaa?

Mama: eh shfeeech eshta6aytay?

I jumped men mokaaany w 6ala3t bara
I MISS THEM!!!

Me: BADOUUUUURAAAAAA

Bader: ya bnt el nas geltlch esmy badooooour mo badoura

Me: waaay maly shughul kaify bagoolk ely aby:p

Ghala: a7maaddd!!

A7mad: yallah setrk, shfeech?;p

Me: eygolooon 9ayer a6wal meny, 9ej wla mo 9ej

A7mad: la mo 9ej

Ghala: yal chathaaab, ogaaf yamy khanshouf

A7mad stood beside her, shoulder by shoulder, laman lafat taby etshof wela eyga9er roo7a 3ashan mayza3lha=)) looooool:p

Layan: alllaah menzman ma teyama3na chethy

7amany: eh wallah, inshalah kel mra chethy

 Rakan: el mara ely ma teye wallah bagar3ha

Nouf: w enta bas t3arf tgar3 el awadm! Kaffy gara3t 7amany elsna elyaya wohwa naym 3ashan ma 6ala3 wyak!

Me: AYSHAAAY=))

3azoooz: wallaah! Maskeen 7mayn dawam eb kaboooos=))

7amany: wallah la7ad yaksht eb rakaano

We sat and chatted and laughed and played deal till it was 7

Mama and om misho came out and sat with us

Mama: haa ashoofkom mestanseen

Me: eh el7mdela

Mama: Abdulaziz enta omk Noura Al X?

3azoooz: eh khalty

Mama: weeh ya7laaylk 6ala3t wld nawara? Salm 3ala omk wayed wayed wayed w golaha lasem enshoofha 3ala yoom!

Abdulaziz: you9al enshalah

Ghala: waaay khalty shloon t3arfeenha?

7amany: lool yal malgoooofa ghaloo

Ghala: chuub aby a3arf

Mama: haha laa 3ade, oma kanat wyaay bel jam3a

Bader: you333aaan

Ahmed: ana ba3ad

Misho: lets go to ra7al

Om misho (khalty lama): la mako go ma go, ge3daw ehny 

Misho in a dala3 voice: mamaaaaaaaa

Khalty Lama: 3yoooon el mama

Rakan w 3azooz ma gedraw yet7amalon , ba6ooha the7k

Misho: yalaa 3ad mama 

Mama: yalah lama khaleehom yestanson

Bader: aywaaa khalty 

Mama: sheft shloon, mu hayna khaltkom Aisha (esm om jawa)  7ady coool 3adel?

Me: LOOOOOOOL mama shnu cool=))

Layan: ambala ambala khalty 7adech cool, ma3alaych men jawa 

Nouf: walah khalty tyaneneeeeen


Gamat w lamat omy

Mama: 7abeebty walah, shoofay jawa ta3almay mnhom

Me: tadren ena a7bch ya3ny

Mama: gha9bn 3alaych ana omch=))

Ghala: w khalty tadren ena ana a7bch akeed 

Mama: eh akeed entay bntna ba3ad shnu

Me: yallah mama bnro7

Mama: enzain bas takhethon zayoona wyakom

Me: waaaay mama

Mama: 6a3 hathy, 3aib bnt 3amch lasem takhethenha

Me: okay wain mefateee7 elrhino's

Mama: mako rhino wyakom zayoona, ro7aw wya raj

Me: mama laa!! a3arf asog shnu may9eer

Mama: eh mashalah khoush swaagaa, nesayna last winter break?

7amany: khalty khalay zayona terkab wyaay 

Mama: 7amany zayoona wyaak, mu y9eer feha shay, ahalha em2amneenha wyay

7amany: eh akeed khalty latwa9een 7areee9

Mama: yalah al7een ayebha

Me: la wallah! Tkhaleenha wya 7amany bas mo wyaay?

Mama: akeed eh! hathaa 7amany

When mama turned her back to go in the shalaih 7amany 6ala3 elsana 7agy chan age6 3alayh the water bottle that was in my hand

Rakan: omg omg omg wdy asawy shay mo 9a7y=))

LOOOL kaan eyqaldd ghalo

Ghala: 7adek e7maaaaar

Gamat men mokanha w she started chasing him

After 4 minutes or so t3baw chan yg3dooon

Finally princess zayooona yaat

Z: JAWAAAAA who are they?!

Me: my friends

She gasped

Z(whispering): all of them?

Me: yeah, yallah you will go in 7amanys car

Z: nooooo i want with the teddy bear 

Layan: haw mnu el bear ba3ad

Z: haaathaaaa

pointing at bader

Bader: bear ib 3ainchh:p

Z: haa?

Bader: nothing

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We entered Mcdonalds ra7al, it wasn't crowded, kena bas e7na w 2 other tables, weird for a thursday night

7amany was holding zayouna's hand 6oul elwakt....cuuuuuute

We sat in a really long table since we were 11 :)

Dashat wa7da shakelha bel jam3a chan tgol in a dala3 voice: olaaah shnu hal qarya ely ga3da ehny

Layan: qoool a3oooth brab el falaq en 9ar fena shay kela men hathy

The girl: waaay b's'ara7a sej yahal

Abdulaziz: waaaay umpaay panat hathy methelna matgol 9ej bas etgol sej

Rakan: tukfa tukfa zooozi sawerny ma3a ghaloooya w 7amooody aby a7at'ha pel ppm (bel bbm) dp

Chan 3azoooz ey9awraa 9orra w rakan ga3ed eysawy kissy facew 7abetain wya ghala w a7mad=))

Zayoona:whats wrong with her she always says waaaay waaaaay waaaaaay

7amany: hathy shes crazy

The girl: waaaaaay geteeee3a hailaag

Nouf: ge6eee3a teg63ch intay inshalah haylgya w tetfalsaf waaaaaaa333

Bader: yaaalah baba roo7ay 3any sadaytay nafsy bel akel

(dont take a wrong idea of me, i never talk back to ppl i dont know haman law eysbony:p bas belstory ga3da asawy chethy:p so latfakron ghala6)

The girl: waaay umbay nono shofay hathy om el blue jacket pointing at me

Her friend: eh shfeha

The girl: ya ghabya hathy ekhet muneera, ely khathat m7amad

Her friend suddenly got really angry and walked towards me

Her friend pulled me so i could stand and said: gooolay 7ag ekhtch el3gaydya beyeha shay mashafeta 3ala ely saweta feny, khathat meny 7amooody

Me: e7tarmay nafsch shnu hal kalam!ma7ad 3gaydy ghayrch, la wallah , abashrch ekhty 7amel etha mo 3ajbch

Girl: Ya3al eymot el baby whya tmooot wara

Ahmed stood and said: Gelbaay wayhch ya jeleeeelat el7aya! Ashkara 3ainy 3aink fath7a rooo7ch la wtgolen 7amoody, tara ana a3arf mnu entay, Nour Al X 9a7? Hahaaay m7amad galena 3anch yal haylgya, entay ely kentay etg6een 3oomrch 3alayh bel jam3a

The girl: wnt mnu ba3ad?!

A7mad: ana okhooo yal khafeeeefa, yallah ashoof thelfay entay w rab3ch ely madre shlon 9ayren walah naby nshouuuf rg3at wayhkom

Wayeha 9ar a7mar, tewahegat 7ail

She grabbed her friend by her wrist and went out

okaaaaaay now that was unexpected..........elmohem

we were done fa temashayna then radaina elshalaih

The boys (including misho) ra7aw shalaih madre mnu

Ghala w nouf gha9b yabon eyshofooon movie, w ana w layan naby netmasha bara so re7na 9ooob elba7ar.

I was secretly hoping ina n9adef abdullah, aby ashoooofa!!

And el7mdela, awal ma 6ala3na wela enshooofa ga3d bara wya msa3ad

Layan: jawoo tekfain khalena nrd

Me: laa please

Layan: please maby ashof msa3ad

Me: laish

Layan: eydezly dms w a7gera

Me: looool 3ade 6af

Layan: please jawa

Me: khala9 uff imshay

We turned and just on time abdullah yelled: JAWA

YEEEES!

Me: opppsss

Layan: i hate u

Me: yallah 3ade

Layan: waaay yallah

We stopped and they walked towards us

I swear Abdullah gets cuter day by day, my heart is gonna melt by how hot he is! He was wearing a windbreaker jacket, white polo shirt and a grey sweat pants, his hair was long and messy:c

Abdullah smiled the biggest smile anyone can give and said: halllaaaah wallaaaah, hallah belzaaain

Layan: halllaah feeeeek

Abdullah: loool intay mankhal9 minch?

Layan: 6oool ma ana 3aisha mara7 akhaleeek wya jawo bro7kom, ga3da 3ala galbkom

Msa3ad: 3aisha wla sara

Layan: umbay ma9adg, bamot men elthe7k:)

Msa3ad: entay ra7 tmooten al7eeen, laish ta7greeen my dm's?

Layan: ha? ah laaa! bas ummm dm's m3alg 7ag cham youuum

Msa3ad: khoush 3ayal:D add me bbm

Layan: ahhh ma 3ndy khedma

Faj2a wla 9ouut bbm y6laa3, 7mara ma 7a6eta silent:)

Msa3ad: w shnu hal 9ooot? goulay mthaygch w bas, latel3been eb a39aby w tkhaleny a7s ina ako shay bayna w entay bas ga3da tel3been, tara ana mo yahel jedamy tel3ben eb masha3ry

As he was trying to walk away layan said : la2 mo mthaygny bas ana madre shfeny, 2E3*****

Msa3ad stopped and was typing her pin and smiling like a maniac..hal athnayna myaneeen jad

Abdullah sat on the sand and i sat beside him, msa3ad raaa7 yamshy wara layan as she was walking the opposite direction

Abdullah: ne6reeeny degeeega

Me: lool okay

he went inside his shalaih 

5 mns later he came out with a bag

Me:shnu hatha?;p

Abdullah: feechy w shoufay

The bag had a small box inside it, i opened it and found a charm bracelet which had the letters A and J. It also had something which looked like a table, and a horse

Me: allllaaaaaaaaaaaaah 3aboooooood shnu hathaa!

Abdullah: hathaa shay 3ashan eythakrch feeny, el A ya3ny abdullah, wel J ya3ny jawa, w el6awla wain awal mara kalamtch laman kentay teshtaghlayn bel ma63am, wl horse 3ashan nrou7 horse back riding ma3a b3th

Me: law shnu bansaaak, waaaaaaaay 7abeeby eyanen

Omg i cant believe gelt 7abeeeby!!!

Abdullah: ha? Shgeltaaayyyy?????

Me: haw shfeeek? gelt law shnu bansaak, wayyyy 3abood eyanen

Abdullah: chathaba geltay shay thany

Shit, im busted

Me: la2 shako

Abdullah: hmmmmm 3ayal laish wayhch a7mar, khala9 e3tarfay ench geltay 7abeeby

Me: waay chub 3abdullah latkharb mazajy:p

Abdullah: waay ya zeen ely 3ndhom mazaaaj walah

Wayhy gelab alwan, madre mesta7ya wla feeny tha7ka, ufff afashel:c

He pinched my cheeks and whispered in my ear: intay kela test7een?

I felt a rush all over my body once he whispered, and that made my cheeks become even more red!


I stayed till it was 10:30 with Abdullah, we talked about everything, life, school, shalaih, horse back riding, family, i can never get bored of hiiiim

As i was walking back to my shalaih i saw Layan sitting with Msa3ad. Uhwa eysolf w ehya mestansa, bas feh shay bkha6erha, lasm a3arf shnu ohwa!

I walked to them: e7m

Layan stood and said: ahh yallah bye msa3ad

Msa3ad: akhhh byeee

Layan: way3 latsolf chethy

Msa3ad: lool yallah bye

When he left i told layan: shfeech

Layan: ma feny shay, entay shfeeech?

Me: la2 feeech, yallah layan please tell me

Layan: ufff you know me too well, madre shlon agoolch, i really really like msa3ad, bs akhaf ey9eer feeny nafs ma 9ar ma3a waleed, w im not ready to take that risk

Me: w shdarach ina ohwa methel Waleed?

Layan: tekfaain he's his friend

Me: w shnu ya3ny? kaa 3abdullah is his friend, etshooofeen ena ohwa methla?

Layan: laa2....

Me: 3ayal khala9! bala sooowalf yahal tara masken walah embayn 3alayh i7bch

Layan: etha ey7bny khal ey6g bab baytna w yakh6bny

Me: 6a3 hathy shnu yakhbch, ya7mara your 17!!

Layan: 3adeeee:p 

Me: waay maynfa3 wyach el7achy, yallah emshay dakhel aby anaaam

Layan: yallah.


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So shraykom?:D Please write your comments i really like to see if you enjoyed it or no

CHAPTER 32

I turned around to see who it was, my heart was crushed as i saw him

He looked too hot, he was wearing a grey sweat pants with a navy a&f hoddie and a ferrari cap, which he wore backwards like always.


Me: shga3d etsawy hny?

I said as i wiped my tears

Abdullah: Meshary galy kelshay, laish ma geltely?

Misho is so dead

Me: m-madre

Abdullah: shnu madre! Tadren ena maa7d yegdar eysawy feech shay 6ol ma ana 3aysh! Tadren wela la? ga3adt leyaly many gader anam, afaker feech, agool mestansa, wela za3lana, ga3da teth7ak wla tabchy, matadren shkether ana walhan 3alaych, walhan 3ala swalfch, rab3y yes2lony belduwaniya laish metghayer, mayadron eny en7aramt men a7la shay 9ar eb 7ayaty


A tear fell from my eye

No, it wasn't a tear of sadness, it was a tear of happiness

Abdullah: latabchen jawa, khala9 ana asef etha kalamy thayegch

Me: laaaa*sniff* ana mestansa, men zman ma kalamtk, mathayagtny bel3aks ana 6ayra men elwanasa

I couldn't take it any longer, i ran and hugged him. Adre 3aib, bas ma gedart at7amal akthar men chethy

Abdullah: okhhh awal mara chethy ey9eeer! yam3awda kel mara khal eykhar3oonch etha btlemeeeny

I moved away and hit him on the shoulder

Me: kaaaalb

Abdullah: inzaaaain tara may9eer chethy

Me: shnu

Abdullah: Feeh wayed ashyaaa wedy asolflech eyaha

Me: ana ba3ad, bas kelsh maly khulg, 9aka feny eldenya

Abdullah: laish?

Me: testa3b6 -.-? 

I pointed to my father who was laying on the bed and didn't know what was happening

Abdullah: eh yal khebla, entay yanaytay wla estakhafaytay?

Me: haw shnu?

Abdullah: shloun etgolen 7ag oboch 3any? Law fahad ely kan wagef mo ana? Chan sh9ar feech?

Me: madre ma fakart

Abdullah: haha, yallah ta3alay wyaay

Me: wain

Abdullah: bara ng3ad bel kersy, may9eer ehny nez3j obooch

Me: okay

I went and sat in the chairs that were in the hall way


Abdullah: awal shay mabrook 3ala muneera!

Me: allah ebark feek!

Abdullah: elfaal 7ag fahad enshalah

Me: enshalah:D

Abdullah: ba3daaaain lenaa enshalah;)

I looked at the ground, fashlaah:(

Abdullah: LOL ya3ny test7en wya wayhch?

Me: chub walah ast7y 

Abdullah: 

I talked to abdullah till it was 7, a7s radatly rooooo7y<3 

He added me eb bbm then left

I was still sitting eb the chairs outside when misho and ghala were walking

Me: Meshaaaryy:):):):)

Ghala: oh no, jawo matgol meshary ela etha msawy shay qawy, shemkharb6 ya 7abeeby

Misho: walah sorry adre bet9arkhen yallah ana mara7 amn3ch ena etzfeny, im ready for my consequences 

I took a deep breath then jumped on him

Me: THANNKKKKKKK YOOUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAAAAAAY YA7MAAAR THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOUUUU!!!!!

Misho: YESSSSS YOUUUU AREEE BACKKK!!! 7ADE 3AJEEB WALLLLLAAAAH

a nurse came out side w zafatna lana ga3den en9arekh

Ghala: umbay umbay ya jema3aa shelsalfa

Misho: Jawa is back with abdullah!

Ghala: ay shaay! 

Me: wallaaah!

6ab3an s2alatny shlon w madre shnu, w misho 2alaflaha ay shay

I went to my mother's room which was on the 3rd floor

I knocked and entered, i saw my mother laying in her bed w ga3da tegra quraan, while fahad was sitting and using his phone

Me: elsalaam

Them: Wa3alaykom elsalam

Mama; haaa shlonch elyom

Me, zaina el7mdela entay shlonch

Mama; el7mdela

Me; mama re7tay 3end oboy

Mama; laa wallah tawny agom

Me; aha

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Its been a week since that day at the hospital with Abdullah, he talks to me everyday, makes me feel that im not alone. 

I visit my father everyday, i stay with him in the hospital till 7, then i have to go home cause they dont allow me to stay any longer

My mother no sleeps at our house, no longer at the hospital, oh and muneera came back yesterday, yes shes really shocked

No one visited my father as much as me, not even my mother

I thought today was a regular sunday, like any other day that i visited him

I got dressed into this 

put a beanie on my hair, and went to the hospital

The weather was pretty cold since we were in december! 

I entered, grabbed my chair, and sat beside him. I held onto his hands and started talking

Me: baba lay meta chethy, lay meta ana basooolf wyak wnta matadre 3an hawa dary, yallah 3aad goom, wallah mara7 a2atheek wala a7n fog rasek mara thanya, baba ana many gadra at7amal akthar, walhana 3alayk bshakel mategdar tetkhayela, bas aby asma3 9oootk 7ag akher mara, 7atan law kent etzfny aw tgooly la jawa mako 6al3a, baba etha ga3d et7s feny aw tsma3ny ta7arak aw fech 3aynk, ay shay baba bas aby a3arf ena ako hope


I waited for a while then i knew that there wasn't hope

I laid my head on my lap, when i felt a few fingers squishing my hand

I lifted my head and saw my fathers hands moving

I jumped from my place, not knowing what to do

I opened the door and ran as fast as i can to the nearest doctor

Me: DOCTOOOOORRR!!! WHERE ARE YOUU

I ran till i reached his office 

I opened the door, out of breath

Dr: shfeeech!

Me: obooy 

Dr: Shfy obooch!!

Me: Ta7arak dr!!!

Before i knew it 3 drs, and a nurse went inside my fathers room


I waited impatiently outside

I already called my mother

I kept praying that he'd wake up

My mother, fahad, muneera &M7amad came (muneeras husband)

Moments later the dr came

Dr: 3endy lekom khouush bshara, obookom gam, tegdron etshofona

We all entered and saw him, he had his eyes open

Mama with tears: smela 3alayk, matshoof shar 7abeeby

Baba: elshar mayeech

Fahad kissed my fathers head

Muneera hugged him and cried, and mohammad kissed my fathers head

Baba: haa shloon shahar el3asal? 3asa estanastaw

M7amad: eh wallah, bas ma kena dareeen enk sawayt 7adeth 3ame

Baba: ma3alay, kheera enshalah

I walked to my fathers bed, lail7en ma salamt 3alayh

I jumped and hugged him and cried 

Baba: olaah olaah laish tabcheeen 7abeebty

Me: baba matadre shkether wegaf galbyyy! 7asayt eny mara7 ashofk mara thanya, 7asayt eny bakhserk, wallah baba ana magdar 3ala fraagk

Baba: ya ba3ad galby wallah ya juju, latkhafeen many ray7 mokan enshalah, w mara7 takhsereny enshalah

We sat with my father all night long

Its been a while since i felt "happy"

I'm finally sitting with my family

Muneera: bedaam ena kelna ehny, w oboy el7mdela gam bel salama, ana w m7amad 3endna shay ngola

Wayeha 9ar a7mar, 7ad'ha mesta7ya

Mama: shfeekom? 9ayr shay? 

Muneera: laa laaa il7mdilah, bas ako shay yaay bel6reej

Faj2a wela omy bedat etyabeb

W fahad 6ayer men el wanasa

Then it hit me MUNEERA'S PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!


Kelmaaan baraklaha w madre shnu

Mohammad: haaa jawa tabeen elbaby eynadeech jawa? Ana agool jawo wayed a7san

Me: haay 6a3 hatha, bysameeny mama ana bakhetha menkom 

Mohammad: eh khoush, entay ekhethy w ana w muneera ensafer w nheda 3ndch

Muneera: 6a3 hathayl, wldy ma akhaly 3ndkom

Mama: khal yooo9al bel awal

Lafait 3ala oboy wla nayem, maskeen 7ada ta3baaan.

My mother bteg3ad bel mostashfa lay belayl met2akher then betrd elbait, fahad ray7 elduwaniya fa muneera w m7amad byrdony elbait:)


In the car

Mohammad: wedy aro7 film

Muneera: al7een?

Mohammad: eh, elsa3a 6, teyen jawa?

Me: laaa mashkour

Mohammad: laaaish? laikon mesta7ya meny

FASHLA

Me: laaaa mu mesta7ya;p

Mohammad: 3ayal khala9 btyeen, 3ndch a7mdo eb bbm?

Me: uhh ehh

Mohammad: goleela al7en yayeen enmora, khal yalbs

Me: okay

The music was so loud, wallah hal m7amad 7ada cool:p

i looked at them, he was holding her hand and smiling, cuute:c

Ahmed hopped in: hallaaaaaaaaaaaaaw

Mohammad: wa3alaikom elsalam

Muneera: haa shlooonk ahmed?

Ahmed: bkhair el7mdela! entay shlonch?

Muneera: tamam

Ahmed: ohhh shelsalfa jawa mestansa elyom? Sh9ayer

Me: A7MEDOOOO OBOY GAAAM

Ahmed: AYSHAY! HEYAAAAAAAAAAAA !

Me: EHH!

Ahmed: yallah shalaih hal weekend!

Me: fouuugaa!

Mohammad: ohhh ashofkom em6ay7en elmyana

Ahmed: eh akeed! Wyaay belclass w al7en ekht mert okhoy, bn6ay7ha 3al akher=))

Muneera: weeh weeh akthar men hal myana? Shnaween 3alayh?

Me: waaayed ashyaaaaa=))

Ahmed: Jawa

Me: ha

Ahmed: tara 9ert a6wal men ghala eb 7 cm!

Me: ayshay! latesm3kkk bas teg3ad fog rask laman t9er 6oolha

Ahmed: tsaweeehaa

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We just got out of the movie

As we were walking towards shake shack i received a call, i answered before looking at the caller id

Me: alooooo

Bader: Halaah belzaaaain

Me: BADOOORRA

Bader: haa shnu badora, rayal shkobrey tgolenly badora

Me: maly shighl, lay bacher bagolk badoura

Bader: enzain jawa ta3alay hal weekend shalaihch, walah mnzman mo shayfeench, ana w 7amany w 3azooz w a7mdo ray7en 3nd misho, ta3alw entay w nouf w layan w ghala yalah 3ad

Me: khala9 okay:D

Bader: heyaa!!

Me: loool 7agy wla 3ashan nouf?;)

Bader: chub ana le7maar daag as2al 3anch

Me: laa laaa sorry badoora walah a7bch=))

Bader: hathy ely ba2adbha al7eeeen:p

Me: looool yalllah bye

Bader: bye

el7emdla everything is going perfectly fine, just like old times<3 

CHAPTER 31

I know this chapter is short, but its better than nothing:p enshalah the next one will be much longer! Enjooooy!
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A tear fell on my cheek as i read his messages.
He doesn't deserve to be treated this way.
He needs an explanation for why i left him.


I didn't realize that the bathroom's door which lead to the hallway was open until misho entered the bathroom

Misho: jawa shfeeech!!

I showed him my phone 

Me: misho magdar at7amal akthar men chethy bas ta3abt

Misho: jawa laish chethy etza3leen roo7ch, tell him shnu 9ar

Me: magdar misho magdar, etha dara bet9eer mashakel 7aga! etha 9ar shay feeh mara7 asam7 roo7y, broo7y kharabt 7ayat oboy al7en 7ayata ohwa


As i remembered my poor father who is unconscious i bursted out in crying, i felt air couldn't reach to my lungs, i felt that i was dying slowly, the hurtful pain in my heart won't go.

Misho pulled me into a hug

Misho: bas jawa, everything is going to be okay

Fajaaa misho cried 

Me: misho latabchy

Misho: magdar jawa, shlon ma abchy w ana ga3ed ashof my bestfriend yetga6a3 galbha w ma asawy shay

Me: waay misho madre shbasawy bedonk

We stayed for 10 minutes sitting at the benches outside

Misho: jawa degay 3ala a7d eye eymorch, don't stay in school, im sure the teachers would understand

Me: maby ared bro7y elbayt, please ta3al wyay

Misho: khalas okay

I called raj 5 times and he didn't answer, i called fahad he didn't answer too.

Me: wayh ma7ad eyrd

Misho: call nassor, ohwa chena madresta em3a6la elyom

Me: inshalah eyrd

After the first few rings he answered 

Me: aloo nasser

Nasser: hallah jawa!

Me: uhh nasser shlonk

Nasser: zain entay shlonch

Me: zaina

Nasser: dom enshalah, baghaytay shay?

Me: eh nasser please tegdar et6al3ny men el madresa? wallah 7ade ta3bana magdar akaml dawam

Nasser heard my voice, it was shaky and weak

Nasser: akeed! Kany masafat el6reeej

Me: mashkooor wayed

Nasser: masawayt shay!

Me: bas nasser abeek et6al3 misho ba3ad, lna byred baytna

Nasser: khalas walah eyhmch, kany garabt 3nd madrestch, 10 minutes w koonay ready

Me: okay

after a few minutes me and misho were called at the reception

My face was pale, my eyes were gonna come out from how much i cried

Madre abchy 3ala oboy, wla 3ala abdullah, wla 3ala nafsy

Nasser carried my bag 

Me: wallah asfa nasser etha 3a6altk 

Nasser: chub yallah, cham bnt 3am 3ndy, bas intay w muneera, w ana okhooch! ma3a6alteny kelsh!

Me: wain sayartk?

Nasser: yaay wya refeejy

Me: waaai3 laykon methel ely theek elmara yaaa (waleed)

Nasser: ahaha laaa! yaaay weya 3baaid

My heart stopped when he said his name, im not ready to see him

Me: ah ay 3ab-dullaaaa-a

Nasser: Al X, yaarkom belshalaih

Misho's face was like this: O_X

Misho held my hand as nasser walked ahead of us

Misho: Dont worry, im here

Me: misho im not ready to see him, magdar

Misho: golay besmellah w rkbay

Me: besmela

Abdullah was driving, nasser was beside him, and i was behind nasser

Abdulla: haa shloonk meshary?

Misho: zain el7mdela, ent shlonk?

Abdullah: mashy el7aal

My heart was gonna stop any minute now, i cant take this any longer

I lifted my head to see the mirror that was in the middle of the car wela 3abdulah was staring at me, when our eyes met i really wanted to tell him how i feel, i just wanted to be honest, but i couldn't

I quickly took my eyes away cause i knew that i would cry if i stared any longer


After 10 minutes of pure awkwardness i reached my home

As i was getting out of the car abdullah said "meshary eg3ad degeega bakalmk"

Oh noooo, enshalah misho  maykhooora wygola 

Nasser was entering our house with me


We got into my room and he sat on the coach as i fell on my bed

Nasser: jawa shfech

Me: mafeny shay

Nasser: la jawa feech shay, men gabel ma 3ame eysawy 7adeth w entay mo 3ala ba3thch, ya3ny a7sch za3laana aw feh shay emthaygch

Me: laa nasser kelsh mo za3lana

Nasser: madre etha tkonen za3lana bas wyay aw wya elkel, bas etha thayagtch eb shy goleely, aw etha 7asaytay ena ghala6t eb 7agch golely, asf etha mara athaytch aw shay

Me: nasser latet2asaf, wallah ent masawaytly shay, bas ana madre shfeny 9aka feny eldnya, maly khulg a7d, kela mnafsa w za3lana

Nasser: lna muneera btetzawaj?

Me: La

Nasser: ha 3ayal shnu

Me: madre nasser

Nasser: 3la ra7tch, wain fahad w khalty?

Me: omy w fahad bel mustashfa

Nasser: ana bamour 3alaykom ellyom el3a9er enshalah

Me: enshala

Nasser: tamreny 3ala shay gabel ma arou7?

Me: salamtk, mashkor wayed nasser

Nasser: masawayt shay

I laid my head on the pillow and slept before i knew it

:jawa yallaaah

: GOUMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY

Me: haaaaaaa!!!!!!

Misho: yallah jawa its 4!!!

I jumped out of bed as i heard him say the time

Me: w laish ma7ad gawamny! Aby aro7 7ag oboy!

Misho: Rosy ma khalatny agawmch

Me: waaaaaaaaaaaay

I got out of bed, washed and changed into 

I let my hair in a high ponytail and went down the stairs

As i was getting out of the house rosy stopped me

R: Where are you going?

Me: rosy im going to baba

R: you no go anywhere until you eat lunch

Me: Maby

R: dont make me angry, did you take your medicine ?

Me: no

R: you want to kill yourself? Go to the table now

Me: ufff rossy maby!

R: i said now!

I went and sat at the table as she placed food on me and misho's plates

Misho: jawa tara 7amany w rakan w 3azooz w badooory y2lon 3anch

Me: umbay 7ade walhana 3alaihom, bas magdar ashofhom al7en

Misho: eh geltlehom

Me: misho khayfa

Misho: mn shnu

Me: khayfa akhser oboy, the doctor said that he's really sick

Misho: waay inshalah ma fe shay, uncle jassim is a really strong man, hathy mar7ala wetro7, inshalah bnshofa a7san men awal

Me: enshaalah

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I entered my father's room and sat beside him, i held onto his hand and poured my heart out.

I started talking about all the stuff that i wanted to tell him, i told him even about mr smith

Me: umbaay baba mageltlk! Elyom knt aby ared men elmadresa wela ma7ad eyrd chan adeg 3ala nasser 3ashan yakhethny, laman yeet barkab elsayara wela kaan abdullah weya, baba galby bagha yoogaf, madre shlon ta7amalt ashofa w ma abtesm walah akalma walah shay, galby 3awrny 7ail, walhana 3alayh 7ayl, elmoshkela ena uhwa 7asbala eny terakta bas chethy, mayadre ana shnu marayt feh, mayadre ena kanaw eyhadedoony, walah a7ba men kel galby, ma amel law asolf wya 6ool elyom, 3omry ma sheft a7ad methla, ma7ad kan eysoolf wyay methla, kent asolf wasolf wasolf w makan eymel meny, makan eygoly 3awartay rasy, haman laman kan weya rab3a kan ykhalehom wysolf wyay 3ashan ma amel, w ana bkel buroood geltla were over, haman i didnt explain to him wala shay

and then a voice behind me startled me

: Jawa? 

CHAPTER 30

Previously:

As i was entering my father's number another person called me

Me: aloooo

: aloo elsalam 3alaykom

It was a voice of a man

Me: wa3alaykom elsalam

: 3endkom mercedes souda raqam elsayara ******

Hathy syarat oboy

Me: eh laish 

: 9a7eb elsayara sawa 7adeth, law sama7taw ta3alaw mustashfa el 3adan eb asra3 wagt

Before i could reply he closed it.


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I was waiting impatiently outside the ER,  with Nasser Layan Nouf &Ghala with me. Strangely no tear fell from my eye, not a single tear. They called my mother and Fahad and told them to come, but they didn't tell them the reason. Nasser came and picked me up since he was the closest one to us. 



My feet couldn't hold me any longer, i felt like i was going to faint. I had my back to the wall and slid into the floor, hugging my knees and burying my face in them. Its all my fault, im the blame. I shouldn't have told my father to come, i shouldn't have called him and made him faster.

Shnu kan ra7 ey9eeer feny law mare7t elshalayh? Walah shay
Shnu 9ar feny laman re7t? Oboy bayn el7ayat wel moooot

Nasser was no where in sight, he was with the doctors w loyat el mustashfa

Ghala was crying non stop, she loved my father so much

Nouf was trying to calm ghala down

Layan came and sat beside me

Layan: jawa 

Her voice was really shaky 

Me: hmmm

Layan: jawa laish sakta

Me: ya3ny shagol layan

Layan: madre jawa, ya3ny entay sakta, mu zain

Me: ya3ny shagol layan? Agool ena ana elsbab ena oboy chethy 9aar feh? Ena ana ely 7anayt 3alayh 3ashan eydoos? Ana shsawayt 7ag 3aylty? Ana kharaab 3alayhom! Bel madresa 3alamaty zeft! At3aqab kel yoom! Msawda wayhom! Bara el madresa bas aheeet! 9bay w kalamta men wara thaharhom! Kesart el thqa bayny w bayn ahaly! W al7een etha 9ar shay eb oboy ana elsebab! KELA MENY ANA!!!!!! KELA ANAA!! AL7EN 3ARAFTAY LAISH ANA SAKTA? LANA GALBY GA3ED YETGA6A3, KARHA NAFSY EB SHAKEL MA TEGDREN ETAKHAYLAYNA! ANA SHNU ELSHAY EL ZAIN ELY SAWAYTA? SHNU? WALAH SHAY! ABY OBOY, ABY AKALMA, ABY ALEMA, ABY AT2ASAF MENA, MABY HATHY TKON NEHAYTY WYA OBOY, MA ABY, WALLAH MA ABY, FA WAKHRAY 3AN WAYHY LANA MALY KHULGCH


Layan was speechless, she couldn't say a word. She gave me the biggest hug in the world, the one that makes you feel that every thing is going to be okay, but deep down i know it wont end up good.

Even though i was the biggest jerk in the world for telling her that last sentence, she didn't leave my side, she made me feel better, i just wish my father becomes better

Moments later my mother came with fahad

As soon as she found out she fainted, magderat tet7amal khabar chethy, they took her into a room and let'd her rest, the doctors told us ina el7mdela ma feha shay


3 hours later the doctor came out of the room, with a depressed face 

Fahad: basher dr! 3asa ma feh shay

Dr: wallah madre shagolkom, 7alta kha6ra 7ayl lana rasa 6ag el steering wheel 7ayl, w men hal shay khala eydsh eb ghaybooba, e7na el7mdela gedarna nwagef el nazeeef ely kan bel mukh, w 7alta al7een mustaqra, bas abeekom tkonon jahzeen 7ag ay shay lana mayegdar yet7amal wayed, how ever, he still has a broken leg and stitches all over his face, w laman eygoom mara7 eykon eb wa3ya 3adel, ohwa al7een mayegdar ey7s feekom walah entaw tegdron t7son feh, ana bas ely agdar agoula ena tad3onla eygom bel salama

Fahad: dr ent shetgool! shnu ghayboooba? Ya3ny meta bygoom!

Dr: hatha elshay magdar agoula lekom, ymkn youm ymkn sbou3 ymkn shahar ymkn sena! Bas enshaalah laman eyggom matkon 3enda side effects! aghlaab el martha ely eb 7alta eykon 3endhom hal effects hathy. Hatha elshay manadry 3ana, 3umooman ohwa beykon bel 3naya el murakaza, ana afathel ena et7awloona 7ag mustashfa thany, bas mategdron etsafron kharej el dawla lana 7alta matesma7la


Fahad grabbed my arm and took me outside of the hospital

Leaving Layan Ghala, Nouf and Nasser with my mother, not knowing what to do.

Fahad: jawa

I still didn't cry, i was still standing strong

Me: hmm

Fahad: jawa abech et3arfen ena etha ay shay 9ar eb oboy, hatha shay allah katba, w e7na mangdar ngoool shay, w etha allah ma ketab 7ag oboy ena ey3eesh lasem netqabal el wath3, lasem tad3eenla, latkhafen, everything is going to be fine enshalah

Me: ana elsbab

Fahad: Sbab? sebab shnu?

Me: ana elsebab ena oboy 9ar feh chethy, kela meny ana baba al7een mo wyana, ana ely geltla baba dooos naby nrooo7, kela meny fahad, kela meny baba ygdar eymoot

At that moment i realized what was happening, at that moment i realized that my father was in a coma. And at that moment my tears betrayed me and started falling uncontrollably on my cheeks. At that moment fahad held my face letting me look at his face.

Fahad: ma abeeech tgoleen hal 7achy mara thanya! Entay mu el sbab! Hatha shay allah katba! Staghferay rabch! May9eer tgoolen chethy! W en sma3tch gayla chethy yawaylch, latgoolen entay el sbab, lana entay malech shughul bely 9ar!

He opened his arms and hugged me really hard, i cried and cried and cried. 


Me: fahad aby babaaaaa *sniff* wallah maby shay bas abeh ohwa, aby obooy magdar a3eesh bedona, uhwa etha safar sbo3ayn amoot men el walah 3alayh, al7een etha 9ar feh shay ana shbasawy? *sniff* magdar wallah ma agder

We stayed 20 minutes then went back inside

We entered my mother's room and saw her laying in the bed with ghala beside her, ghala was hugging her while she was sleeping, yes ghala was my sister and ma test7y men omy lana methel omha

Nasser was talking on the phone while layan was sleeping on the chair and nouf was in the bathroom

Faj2a Nasser ey9arkh bel telephone which made layan wake up from her sleep and nouf came out of the bathroom 

Me: layan ghala w nouf may9eer teg3don ehny, al7en akeed ahalkom ga3den eydawronkom

Ghala: men9jch, mara7 aro7, law et'telony men sha3ry many ray7a

Layan: walah ana mara7 arou7, e7na lasem nougaf wyach laman te7tajayna

Nouf: eh wallah! mara7 nrou7

Fahad: kelkom betro7on w jawa weyakom ba3ad

I turned to him: na3am? la mara7 arou7!

Fahad: jawa sem3ay elkalam, betro7en al7en wya nasser, ohwa beywadekom elbayt

Me: la2 fahad

Fahad: Jawa. sem3ay. elkalam.  rou7ay elbayt w ta3alay bacher el9ob7

He was dead serious

Layan: khala9 jawa, reday bacher el9ob7, elwathe3 ma yesma7

Ghala: eh jawa

Fahad: w entaw namaw eb baytna, latkhalon jawa brou7ha

Nouf: eh akeed! mara7 nkhaleha! 

We got to nassers car, i sat in the front seat lana kelhom yest7oon.

The whole car ride was silent, no one was talking

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I woke up the following day, all the girls were sleeping so i checked the clock

7:03

I took a shower to get my thoughts clear, then went to the car so i can get to the hospital. 
I had my hair held up in high ponytail.

Me: raj quickly go to hospital, the one beside shalaih

Raj: no yesterday night baba fahad call me, we go salam now, baba and mama there

Me: okay bas quickly raj




In exactly 10 minutes we reached


I went to the reception since i didn't know where the room was

Me: excuse me where is jassim alx's room? 

Receptionist: im sorry, i cant tell you

Me: cant tell me? laish enshalah?

Receptionist: hospital rules

Me: i dont care about your stupid rules, what is the room number?

Receptionist: sorry ma'am, if you have a problem you can talk to the manager

I said in a raised voice: what do you mean if? I DO have a problem, tell me the room number now, i want to see my father

Receptionist: wait i'll call the dr

i had to wait for 15 minutes till el estath el dr eysharf:):):):) 7aqaraa

lama ya el dr 6ala3 nafsa mal ely ams!

Dr: ohhh hallah! entay benta 9a7!?

Me: eh! 

Dr: ta3alay ma3ay, your lucky yeetay 3al waqt, we now allow visitors

Me: ashwa!

He took me to where my father was

I saw my father through a glassed door, his chest was revealed and it had tons of wires connected to it. His head was wrapped in a bandage, and his leg was casted. He had a "kamam" on his mouth

Dr: yallah tben etdshen?

Me: uhh la7tha, dr etha tekalamt yesma3ny?

Dr: ymkn, wayed nas kanw ytkalmon w 6la3aw ysm3oon

Me: waaay inshalah ysma3

Dr: inshaalah

Me: wain omy o okhoy?

Dr: naymeen, bel door el 12

Me: oh okay

Dr: yallah deshay

Me: yalaah

I entered the room all by myself, i grabbed a chair and sat beside my father


Me: baba madre etha tesma3ny aw laa bas 7ade walhana 3alayk, baba ana asfa 7ayl wallah 7ayl asfa, maby shay mn hal denya klaha ela enk tkon wyaay, wallah ana ma aswa ay shay men dooounk, please baba etha tesma3ny abeek t3arf eny walhana 3alayk w ena a7bk wayed

I grabbed his hand

:baba ana ghala6t wayed, bas akbar ghal6a ehya eny a9arayt 3alayk ena etdous, wallah 9ej baba matadre shkether ana nadmana, matadre shkether ana asfa, ad3e 6oul elyom ena tkon a7san

Then bedayt asoulf weya

Me: umbaay baba ana madre laish bas ma geltlk! 7ayl estanast men frusya! wallah wayed wanasa! bas madre laish wegaft arou7 3ogoub ma sheft 3abdullah w geltla ena were over (he cant hear me, i guess) 7ayl wedy aru7! 3ad ams el9ob7 dagayt w gelt ena brou7 on sunday, ely ohwa bacher, enshalah enshalah 3ogob ma akhal9 ra7 ayee 3endk w agoulk shnu 9ar! ana mawedy arou7 walah mukan eb 9ara7a bas ena ya3ny madre shlon, ya3ny enta kan wedk ena at3alam, fa ana al7een basawy kel ely geltly 3ana! muneera matadre ena enta ehny, kel ma etdg engoolaha enk b a meeting aw tetsaba7, takhayal dagat ams 7 marat, bas fahad gal mangoulaha lana ehya betrd elsbou3 elyay w mayabe eykharb 3alayha shahar el3asal malha, 3ad dazatly 9warha ehya w m7amad, walah eyshawgon


I kept on talking and talking and talking

before i even knew it, it became 11 

I went to my mother's room, el7mdela 7alat'ha kanat wayed a7san elyom

Wa9atny ana w fahad ena mangol 7ag muneera w manaktb shay eb twitter aw ay shay 3ashan mankhar3ha

6ab3an my mother forced me to go to school, i had no choice, makent aby a7n lana kanat nafseyat'ha wayed ta3bana, fa bas gelt okay w ga3adt lay belayl

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I walked into our school with a yellow face, my eye lids were black, indicating that i haven't had much sleep in the past 2 days, aahhhh first period with mr smith, kelsh maly khulg at'hawash weya, 9arly 3 weeks ag3ad sakta eb his class, not quiet as in polite, quiet as in depressed w maly khulg, kela mn salfat abdullah

I went to the back seat and rested my head on the wall


during the middle of his explanation he said: jawa please may you step outside

Me: why?

Mr Smith: just go

I stood outside waiting for him


Mr S: jawa whats wrong? i've been noticing you for the past couple of weeks, your not the same, your not that energetic jawa anymore, you dont bug me in class, you dont argue, and today you look even more tired, tell me what wrong 

Me: nothing mr im just tired

Mr S: no, you cant be tired for three weeks. now tell me

Me: mr theres just a few problems at home

Mr S: whats wrong? 

Me: nothing mr

Mr S: im going to have to call your father if you dont tell me

I looked at the ground and said: you cant

Mr S: why?

Me: you just can't

tears failed me again, one tear fell after the other

Mr Smith: if you dont tell me now then im going to call the principle

Me: no no dont, my father had an accident and now he's in a coma, are you happy that you know? Did you feel happy now?

Mr S: im so sorry, i really didn't know

Me: its okay

i went to the bathroom to wash my face

i checked my phone, 3 text messages 

99****** (Abdullah):
-jawa tawny daarayt 3an 3ame, matshofoon shar enshalah
-etha tabeen ay shay tara im here, w as a brother

and the last message killed me

-i really hope your doing fine, i really miss you, madre laish were over bas adre that you have your reasons, tc