CHAPTER 31

I know this chapter is short, but its better than nothing:p enshalah the next one will be much longer! Enjooooy!
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A tear fell on my cheek as i read his messages.
He doesn't deserve to be treated this way.
He needs an explanation for why i left him.


I didn't realize that the bathroom's door which lead to the hallway was open until misho entered the bathroom

Misho: jawa shfeeech!!

I showed him my phone 

Me: misho magdar at7amal akthar men chethy bas ta3abt

Misho: jawa laish chethy etza3leen roo7ch, tell him shnu 9ar

Me: magdar misho magdar, etha dara bet9eer mashakel 7aga! etha 9ar shay feeh mara7 asam7 roo7y, broo7y kharabt 7ayat oboy al7en 7ayata ohwa


As i remembered my poor father who is unconscious i bursted out in crying, i felt air couldn't reach to my lungs, i felt that i was dying slowly, the hurtful pain in my heart won't go.

Misho pulled me into a hug

Misho: bas jawa, everything is going to be okay

Fajaaa misho cried 

Me: misho latabchy

Misho: magdar jawa, shlon ma abchy w ana ga3ed ashof my bestfriend yetga6a3 galbha w ma asawy shay

Me: waay misho madre shbasawy bedonk

We stayed for 10 minutes sitting at the benches outside

Misho: jawa degay 3ala a7d eye eymorch, don't stay in school, im sure the teachers would understand

Me: maby ared bro7y elbayt, please ta3al wyay

Misho: khalas okay

I called raj 5 times and he didn't answer, i called fahad he didn't answer too.

Me: wayh ma7ad eyrd

Misho: call nassor, ohwa chena madresta em3a6la elyom

Me: inshalah eyrd

After the first few rings he answered 

Me: aloo nasser

Nasser: hallah jawa!

Me: uhh nasser shlonk

Nasser: zain entay shlonch

Me: zaina

Nasser: dom enshalah, baghaytay shay?

Me: eh nasser please tegdar et6al3ny men el madresa? wallah 7ade ta3bana magdar akaml dawam

Nasser heard my voice, it was shaky and weak

Nasser: akeed! Kany masafat el6reeej

Me: mashkooor wayed

Nasser: masawayt shay!

Me: bas nasser abeek et6al3 misho ba3ad, lna byred baytna

Nasser: khalas walah eyhmch, kany garabt 3nd madrestch, 10 minutes w koonay ready

Me: okay

after a few minutes me and misho were called at the reception

My face was pale, my eyes were gonna come out from how much i cried

Madre abchy 3ala oboy, wla 3ala abdullah, wla 3ala nafsy

Nasser carried my bag 

Me: wallah asfa nasser etha 3a6altk 

Nasser: chub yallah, cham bnt 3am 3ndy, bas intay w muneera, w ana okhooch! ma3a6alteny kelsh!

Me: wain sayartk?

Nasser: yaay wya refeejy

Me: waaai3 laykon methel ely theek elmara yaaa (waleed)

Nasser: ahaha laaa! yaaay weya 3baaid

My heart stopped when he said his name, im not ready to see him

Me: ah ay 3ab-dullaaaa-a

Nasser: Al X, yaarkom belshalaih

Misho's face was like this: O_X

Misho held my hand as nasser walked ahead of us

Misho: Dont worry, im here

Me: misho im not ready to see him, magdar

Misho: golay besmellah w rkbay

Me: besmela

Abdullah was driving, nasser was beside him, and i was behind nasser

Abdulla: haa shloonk meshary?

Misho: zain el7mdela, ent shlonk?

Abdullah: mashy el7aal

My heart was gonna stop any minute now, i cant take this any longer

I lifted my head to see the mirror that was in the middle of the car wela 3abdulah was staring at me, when our eyes met i really wanted to tell him how i feel, i just wanted to be honest, but i couldn't

I quickly took my eyes away cause i knew that i would cry if i stared any longer


After 10 minutes of pure awkwardness i reached my home

As i was getting out of the car abdullah said "meshary eg3ad degeega bakalmk"

Oh noooo, enshalah misho  maykhooora wygola 

Nasser was entering our house with me


We got into my room and he sat on the coach as i fell on my bed

Nasser: jawa shfech

Me: mafeny shay

Nasser: la jawa feech shay, men gabel ma 3ame eysawy 7adeth w entay mo 3ala ba3thch, ya3ny a7sch za3laana aw feh shay emthaygch

Me: laa nasser kelsh mo za3lana

Nasser: madre etha tkonen za3lana bas wyay aw wya elkel, bas etha thayagtch eb shy goleely, aw etha 7asaytay ena ghala6t eb 7agch golely, asf etha mara athaytch aw shay

Me: nasser latet2asaf, wallah ent masawaytly shay, bas ana madre shfeny 9aka feny eldnya, maly khulg a7d, kela mnafsa w za3lana

Nasser: lna muneera btetzawaj?

Me: La

Nasser: ha 3ayal shnu

Me: madre nasser

Nasser: 3la ra7tch, wain fahad w khalty?

Me: omy w fahad bel mustashfa

Nasser: ana bamour 3alaykom ellyom el3a9er enshalah

Me: enshala

Nasser: tamreny 3ala shay gabel ma arou7?

Me: salamtk, mashkor wayed nasser

Nasser: masawayt shay

I laid my head on the pillow and slept before i knew it

:jawa yallaaah

: GOUMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY

Me: haaaaaaa!!!!!!

Misho: yallah jawa its 4!!!

I jumped out of bed as i heard him say the time

Me: w laish ma7ad gawamny! Aby aro7 7ag oboy!

Misho: Rosy ma khalatny agawmch

Me: waaaaaaaaaaaay

I got out of bed, washed and changed into 

I let my hair in a high ponytail and went down the stairs

As i was getting out of the house rosy stopped me

R: Where are you going?

Me: rosy im going to baba

R: you no go anywhere until you eat lunch

Me: Maby

R: dont make me angry, did you take your medicine ?

Me: no

R: you want to kill yourself? Go to the table now

Me: ufff rossy maby!

R: i said now!

I went and sat at the table as she placed food on me and misho's plates

Misho: jawa tara 7amany w rakan w 3azooz w badooory y2lon 3anch

Me: umbay 7ade walhana 3alaihom, bas magdar ashofhom al7en

Misho: eh geltlehom

Me: misho khayfa

Misho: mn shnu

Me: khayfa akhser oboy, the doctor said that he's really sick

Misho: waay inshalah ma fe shay, uncle jassim is a really strong man, hathy mar7ala wetro7, inshalah bnshofa a7san men awal

Me: enshaalah

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I entered my father's room and sat beside him, i held onto his hand and poured my heart out.

I started talking about all the stuff that i wanted to tell him, i told him even about mr smith

Me: umbaay baba mageltlk! Elyom knt aby ared men elmadresa wela ma7ad eyrd chan adeg 3ala nasser 3ashan yakhethny, laman yeet barkab elsayara wela kaan abdullah weya, baba galby bagha yoogaf, madre shlon ta7amalt ashofa w ma abtesm walah akalma walah shay, galby 3awrny 7ail, walhana 3alayh 7ayl, elmoshkela ena uhwa 7asbala eny terakta bas chethy, mayadre ana shnu marayt feh, mayadre ena kanaw eyhadedoony, walah a7ba men kel galby, ma amel law asolf wya 6ool elyom, 3omry ma sheft a7ad methla, ma7ad kan eysoolf wyay methla, kent asolf wasolf wasolf w makan eymel meny, makan eygoly 3awartay rasy, haman laman kan weya rab3a kan ykhalehom wysolf wyay 3ashan ma amel, w ana bkel buroood geltla were over, haman i didnt explain to him wala shay

and then a voice behind me startled me

: Jawa?