CHAPTER 30

Previously:

As i was entering my father's number another person called me

Me: aloooo

: aloo elsalam 3alaykom

It was a voice of a man

Me: wa3alaykom elsalam

: 3endkom mercedes souda raqam elsayara ******

Hathy syarat oboy

Me: eh laish 

: 9a7eb elsayara sawa 7adeth, law sama7taw ta3alaw mustashfa el 3adan eb asra3 wagt

Before i could reply he closed it.


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I was waiting impatiently outside the ER,  with Nasser Layan Nouf &Ghala with me. Strangely no tear fell from my eye, not a single tear. They called my mother and Fahad and told them to come, but they didn't tell them the reason. Nasser came and picked me up since he was the closest one to us. 



My feet couldn't hold me any longer, i felt like i was going to faint. I had my back to the wall and slid into the floor, hugging my knees and burying my face in them. Its all my fault, im the blame. I shouldn't have told my father to come, i shouldn't have called him and made him faster.

Shnu kan ra7 ey9eeer feny law mare7t elshalayh? Walah shay
Shnu 9ar feny laman re7t? Oboy bayn el7ayat wel moooot

Nasser was no where in sight, he was with the doctors w loyat el mustashfa

Ghala was crying non stop, she loved my father so much

Nouf was trying to calm ghala down

Layan came and sat beside me

Layan: jawa 

Her voice was really shaky 

Me: hmmm

Layan: jawa laish sakta

Me: ya3ny shagol layan

Layan: madre jawa, ya3ny entay sakta, mu zain

Me: ya3ny shagol layan? Agool ena ana elsbab ena oboy chethy 9aar feh? Ena ana ely 7anayt 3alayh 3ashan eydoos? Ana shsawayt 7ag 3aylty? Ana kharaab 3alayhom! Bel madresa 3alamaty zeft! At3aqab kel yoom! Msawda wayhom! Bara el madresa bas aheeet! 9bay w kalamta men wara thaharhom! Kesart el thqa bayny w bayn ahaly! W al7een etha 9ar shay eb oboy ana elsebab! KELA MENY ANA!!!!!! KELA ANAA!! AL7EN 3ARAFTAY LAISH ANA SAKTA? LANA GALBY GA3ED YETGA6A3, KARHA NAFSY EB SHAKEL MA TEGDREN ETAKHAYLAYNA! ANA SHNU ELSHAY EL ZAIN ELY SAWAYTA? SHNU? WALAH SHAY! ABY OBOY, ABY AKALMA, ABY ALEMA, ABY AT2ASAF MENA, MABY HATHY TKON NEHAYTY WYA OBOY, MA ABY, WALLAH MA ABY, FA WAKHRAY 3AN WAYHY LANA MALY KHULGCH


Layan was speechless, she couldn't say a word. She gave me the biggest hug in the world, the one that makes you feel that every thing is going to be okay, but deep down i know it wont end up good.

Even though i was the biggest jerk in the world for telling her that last sentence, she didn't leave my side, she made me feel better, i just wish my father becomes better

Moments later my mother came with fahad

As soon as she found out she fainted, magderat tet7amal khabar chethy, they took her into a room and let'd her rest, the doctors told us ina el7mdela ma feha shay


3 hours later the doctor came out of the room, with a depressed face 

Fahad: basher dr! 3asa ma feh shay

Dr: wallah madre shagolkom, 7alta kha6ra 7ayl lana rasa 6ag el steering wheel 7ayl, w men hal shay khala eydsh eb ghaybooba, e7na el7mdela gedarna nwagef el nazeeef ely kan bel mukh, w 7alta al7een mustaqra, bas abeekom tkonon jahzeen 7ag ay shay lana mayegdar yet7amal wayed, how ever, he still has a broken leg and stitches all over his face, w laman eygoom mara7 eykon eb wa3ya 3adel, ohwa al7een mayegdar ey7s feekom walah entaw tegdron t7son feh, ana bas ely agdar agoula ena tad3onla eygom bel salama

Fahad: dr ent shetgool! shnu ghayboooba? Ya3ny meta bygoom!

Dr: hatha elshay magdar agoula lekom, ymkn youm ymkn sbou3 ymkn shahar ymkn sena! Bas enshaalah laman eyggom matkon 3enda side effects! aghlaab el martha ely eb 7alta eykon 3endhom hal effects hathy. Hatha elshay manadry 3ana, 3umooman ohwa beykon bel 3naya el murakaza, ana afathel ena et7awloona 7ag mustashfa thany, bas mategdron etsafron kharej el dawla lana 7alta matesma7la


Fahad grabbed my arm and took me outside of the hospital

Leaving Layan Ghala, Nouf and Nasser with my mother, not knowing what to do.

Fahad: jawa

I still didn't cry, i was still standing strong

Me: hmm

Fahad: jawa abech et3arfen ena etha ay shay 9ar eb oboy, hatha shay allah katba, w e7na mangdar ngoool shay, w etha allah ma ketab 7ag oboy ena ey3eesh lasem netqabal el wath3, lasem tad3eenla, latkhafen, everything is going to be fine enshalah

Me: ana elsbab

Fahad: Sbab? sebab shnu?

Me: ana elsebab ena oboy 9ar feh chethy, kela meny ana baba al7een mo wyana, ana ely geltla baba dooos naby nrooo7, kela meny fahad, kela meny baba ygdar eymoot

At that moment i realized what was happening, at that moment i realized that my father was in a coma. And at that moment my tears betrayed me and started falling uncontrollably on my cheeks. At that moment fahad held my face letting me look at his face.

Fahad: ma abeeech tgoleen hal 7achy mara thanya! Entay mu el sbab! Hatha shay allah katba! Staghferay rabch! May9eer tgoolen chethy! W en sma3tch gayla chethy yawaylch, latgoolen entay el sbab, lana entay malech shughul bely 9ar!

He opened his arms and hugged me really hard, i cried and cried and cried. 


Me: fahad aby babaaaaa *sniff* wallah maby shay bas abeh ohwa, aby obooy magdar a3eesh bedona, uhwa etha safar sbo3ayn amoot men el walah 3alayh, al7een etha 9ar feh shay ana shbasawy? *sniff* magdar wallah ma agder

We stayed 20 minutes then went back inside

We entered my mother's room and saw her laying in the bed with ghala beside her, ghala was hugging her while she was sleeping, yes ghala was my sister and ma test7y men omy lana methel omha

Nasser was talking on the phone while layan was sleeping on the chair and nouf was in the bathroom

Faj2a Nasser ey9arkh bel telephone which made layan wake up from her sleep and nouf came out of the bathroom 

Me: layan ghala w nouf may9eer teg3don ehny, al7en akeed ahalkom ga3den eydawronkom

Ghala: men9jch, mara7 aro7, law et'telony men sha3ry many ray7a

Layan: walah ana mara7 arou7, e7na lasem nougaf wyach laman te7tajayna

Nouf: eh wallah! mara7 nrou7

Fahad: kelkom betro7on w jawa weyakom ba3ad

I turned to him: na3am? la mara7 arou7!

Fahad: jawa sem3ay elkalam, betro7en al7en wya nasser, ohwa beywadekom elbayt

Me: la2 fahad

Fahad: Jawa. sem3ay. elkalam.  rou7ay elbayt w ta3alay bacher el9ob7

He was dead serious

Layan: khala9 jawa, reday bacher el9ob7, elwathe3 ma yesma7

Ghala: eh jawa

Fahad: w entaw namaw eb baytna, latkhalon jawa brou7ha

Nouf: eh akeed! mara7 nkhaleha! 

We got to nassers car, i sat in the front seat lana kelhom yest7oon.

The whole car ride was silent, no one was talking

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I woke up the following day, all the girls were sleeping so i checked the clock

7:03

I took a shower to get my thoughts clear, then went to the car so i can get to the hospital. 
I had my hair held up in high ponytail.

Me: raj quickly go to hospital, the one beside shalaih

Raj: no yesterday night baba fahad call me, we go salam now, baba and mama there

Me: okay bas quickly raj




In exactly 10 minutes we reached


I went to the reception since i didn't know where the room was

Me: excuse me where is jassim alx's room? 

Receptionist: im sorry, i cant tell you

Me: cant tell me? laish enshalah?

Receptionist: hospital rules

Me: i dont care about your stupid rules, what is the room number?

Receptionist: sorry ma'am, if you have a problem you can talk to the manager

I said in a raised voice: what do you mean if? I DO have a problem, tell me the room number now, i want to see my father

Receptionist: wait i'll call the dr

i had to wait for 15 minutes till el estath el dr eysharf:):):):) 7aqaraa

lama ya el dr 6ala3 nafsa mal ely ams!

Dr: ohhh hallah! entay benta 9a7!?

Me: eh! 

Dr: ta3alay ma3ay, your lucky yeetay 3al waqt, we now allow visitors

Me: ashwa!

He took me to where my father was

I saw my father through a glassed door, his chest was revealed and it had tons of wires connected to it. His head was wrapped in a bandage, and his leg was casted. He had a "kamam" on his mouth

Dr: yallah tben etdshen?

Me: uhh la7tha, dr etha tekalamt yesma3ny?

Dr: ymkn, wayed nas kanw ytkalmon w 6la3aw ysm3oon

Me: waaay inshalah ysma3

Dr: inshaalah

Me: wain omy o okhoy?

Dr: naymeen, bel door el 12

Me: oh okay

Dr: yallah deshay

Me: yalaah

I entered the room all by myself, i grabbed a chair and sat beside my father


Me: baba madre etha tesma3ny aw laa bas 7ade walhana 3alayk, baba ana asfa 7ayl wallah 7ayl asfa, maby shay mn hal denya klaha ela enk tkon wyaay, wallah ana ma aswa ay shay men dooounk, please baba etha tesma3ny abeek t3arf eny walhana 3alayk w ena a7bk wayed

I grabbed his hand

:baba ana ghala6t wayed, bas akbar ghal6a ehya eny a9arayt 3alayk ena etdous, wallah 9ej baba matadre shkether ana nadmana, matadre shkether ana asfa, ad3e 6oul elyom ena tkon a7san

Then bedayt asoulf weya

Me: umbaay baba ana madre laish bas ma geltlk! 7ayl estanast men frusya! wallah wayed wanasa! bas madre laish wegaft arou7 3ogoub ma sheft 3abdullah w geltla ena were over (he cant hear me, i guess) 7ayl wedy aru7! 3ad ams el9ob7 dagayt w gelt ena brou7 on sunday, ely ohwa bacher, enshalah enshalah 3ogob ma akhal9 ra7 ayee 3endk w agoulk shnu 9ar! ana mawedy arou7 walah mukan eb 9ara7a bas ena ya3ny madre shlon, ya3ny enta kan wedk ena at3alam, fa ana al7een basawy kel ely geltly 3ana! muneera matadre ena enta ehny, kel ma etdg engoolaha enk b a meeting aw tetsaba7, takhayal dagat ams 7 marat, bas fahad gal mangoulaha lana ehya betrd elsbou3 elyay w mayabe eykharb 3alayha shahar el3asal malha, 3ad dazatly 9warha ehya w m7amad, walah eyshawgon


I kept on talking and talking and talking

before i even knew it, it became 11 

I went to my mother's room, el7mdela 7alat'ha kanat wayed a7san elyom

Wa9atny ana w fahad ena mangol 7ag muneera w manaktb shay eb twitter aw ay shay 3ashan mankhar3ha

6ab3an my mother forced me to go to school, i had no choice, makent aby a7n lana kanat nafseyat'ha wayed ta3bana, fa bas gelt okay w ga3adt lay belayl

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I walked into our school with a yellow face, my eye lids were black, indicating that i haven't had much sleep in the past 2 days, aahhhh first period with mr smith, kelsh maly khulg at'hawash weya, 9arly 3 weeks ag3ad sakta eb his class, not quiet as in polite, quiet as in depressed w maly khulg, kela mn salfat abdullah

I went to the back seat and rested my head on the wall


during the middle of his explanation he said: jawa please may you step outside

Me: why?

Mr Smith: just go

I stood outside waiting for him


Mr S: jawa whats wrong? i've been noticing you for the past couple of weeks, your not the same, your not that energetic jawa anymore, you dont bug me in class, you dont argue, and today you look even more tired, tell me what wrong 

Me: nothing mr im just tired

Mr S: no, you cant be tired for three weeks. now tell me

Me: mr theres just a few problems at home

Mr S: whats wrong? 

Me: nothing mr

Mr S: im going to have to call your father if you dont tell me

I looked at the ground and said: you cant

Mr S: why?

Me: you just can't

tears failed me again, one tear fell after the other

Mr Smith: if you dont tell me now then im going to call the principle

Me: no no dont, my father had an accident and now he's in a coma, are you happy that you know? Did you feel happy now?

Mr S: im so sorry, i really didn't know

Me: its okay

i went to the bathroom to wash my face

i checked my phone, 3 text messages 

99****** (Abdullah):
-jawa tawny daarayt 3an 3ame, matshofoon shar enshalah
-etha tabeen ay shay tara im here, w as a brother

and the last message killed me

-i really hope your doing fine, i really miss you, madre laish were over bas adre that you have your reasons, tc